sTeLLaLiGhT

A Price To Pay

2009-09-10T05:02:21Z

DEDICATED FOR DEE

UNBETA-ED

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Junsu sat beside his lover, watching him do his work without even bother to keep talking to Junsu. Even though several times Junsu tried to start a conversation but he just keep writing and signing all the paper on the table, just answered Junsu with a short ‘hm’ or shook his head.

“Yunnie-yah...can you take a break? You look so tired...” Junsu said little worried because his boyfriend had spent all night and most of this morning to finish whatever he was working.

“I need this for my presentation tomorrow” Yunho replied without looking up at Junsu.

“But Yunnie-yah...You’ll get sick if you keep working like this...” Junsu said as he brushed the hair that covered Yunho’s face.

“I’m okay...” Yunho replied for once looking up and smiled to Junsu.

“Yunnie-yah...please? I beg you...” Junsu pulled at the other man sleeves, pouting cutely.

“I’ll finished it in a bit...can you just leave me alone for a while so that I can finished it and we can spend the rest of the day together?” Yunho said his focus back to his paper.

“Whatever!” Junsu said before stood up and heading to their shared bedroom.

“Junsu-yah?” Yunho called looking up as his angry boyfriend walked away. “At least he let me do this...” Yunho just shrugged his shoulder and continue his work.

Inside the bedroom...

“Stupid Yunho! Can’t he listen to me for once? It’s for own good for God’s sake!” Junsu mumbled angrily as he hit the pillow over and over again. “He doesn’t even care about himself then what about me? Does he care about me?” He said to himself.

He then laid on the bed and covered himself with the blanket. He remembered the first time they met, on the high school. The time when Yunho confessed to Junsu that he like him, which was over 5 years ago. The day when they finally moved together to this house, that was he happiest day of Junsu’s life because he can spend the rest of his life with the person he loved the most.

But never once in his life he thought that things would turn out like this. Since Yunho had been promoted as the manager for the company where he’s working, Yunho became extremely busy. They can barely spend a day together. Yunho always went to work early and came back home so late at night. When Junsu awake he just found himself alone on their bed, but sometime Yunho was care enough to left a note that usually said that he was going to come back late and told Junsu to not wait up for him. But he came back late almost everynight, very late till Junsu fell asleep on the couch waiting for him.

This made Junsu cry, how long it had been since they spent their time to just cuddled up on the bed, talk nothing particular, made breakfast together, make a little picnic time at the neighborhood playing ground. Some quality times for their own. Junsu cried silently to sleep.

Junsu woke up 4 hours later with swollen and red eyes. He looked at the bedside table and found out that it was evening already. It almost dark, he made a note as he looked out the window. He found himself alone and realized that Yunho must be hadn’t finished his work.

He jumped out the bed and walked out the room and found Yunho was sleeping on the table. He just smiled and went back to their room to grab a blanket. He then put it over Yunho’s shoulder to keep him warm. He moved one chair closer to Yunho and sat on it.

“See? You work yourself out...” Junsu whispered and brushed Yunho’s hair off his face. That’s what he always did when Yunho’s hair was covering his face. He loved looking at Yunho’s face, he looked so calm and handsome especially when he’s sleeping. He stayed there for the next 2 hours when finally Yunho woke up.

“Aish...how come I fell asleep...” Yunho mumbled as he rubbed his eyes.

“You needed some rest, your body can take that much, see?” Junsu said, made himself known.

“But I really need to finished this...so we can spend-“

“STOP! STOP IT!” Junsu yelled, his eyes watered.

“Junsu-yah?” Yunho was so shock at Junsu’s reaction.

“Stop it Yunho! Stop making that as an excuse...You said that you need to finish it so that you can spent the rest of the day together, see...it’s dark already, I know it would turn out like this! That’s why I prefer to spend our time together on the bed, cuddling to each other so that you can rest but what? YOU KEEP PUSHING ME AWAY! JUST TELL ME WHEN YOU WANT ME TO STAY AWAY, I’LL STAY AWAY! You-u always wore yourself out-t, don’t you care about yourself...This won’t worth it Yunho...you’ll regret it later-r” Junsu was crying by then.

“Jun-Junsu-yah...Mian...I didn’t mean it like that...I-I, I just need some time alone to finish that...” Yunho didn’t know what to say, he really had messed everything out.

“You even don’t *hiccup* c-care about yourself...how-how you’re gonna t-take care of me *hiccup* me then?” Junsu asked.

“I-I...I car-“

“Do I ever cross in your mind?”

“I, of-f c-cour-”

“Do you even like me?” When Yunho didn’t answer he continued.

“Do you want me to stay?”

“Would you do anything for me?”

“Would you even cry when I left?”

“Could you even choose between me or your life?” Junsu bombarded Yunho with questions. It tore up his heart when Yunho couldn’t answer the questions.

“See-e *hiccup* you can’t even answer it!” Junsu laughed bitterly. “This is it Yunho, This is it...” Junsu whispered, tried his best to stop cry but he couldn’t.

Junsu then ran out the house. Yunho just sat there, still trying to process the situation. When he finally realized what just happened he too ran out the house. He looked around to find Junsu when he spotted a lot of people stood on the middle of the road surrounded something.

“Yunho-sshi!” One of his neighbor called out. “Junsu-sshi...” Yunho couldn’t hear the rest of the word. His world went blank and silent. ‘No,no please no...’ He begged as he walked closer to the crowd. Then he looked down and found Junsu laid there covered in blood. He couldn’t walk closer, as if his body didn’t let him to touch Junsu’s body. He wanted to scream, to call Junsu to comeback, but he can’t. All he could remember was falling to the ground.

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Yunho took a gulp of breath and he opened his eyes. All he could see was a stack of paper and his hand gripped a pen.

“Yunnie-yah...can you take a break? You look so tired...” He looked to his side and fell off his chair. ‘No, this can be...’ Yunho’s eyes widened as he looked Junsu walking closer.

“Yunnie-yah, gwaenchana?” Junsu said as he rubbed Yunho’s cheek. Yunho felt the warm of Junsu’s hands and realized that this was real but still couldn’t believe what just happening.

“Huh? I-I’m okay...” Yunho answered. ‘Please God...don’t tell me it’s some kind of cruel dream...please tell me that this is real...please!’ Yunho begged in his mind.

“What the hell were you thinking about? You just suddenly fell off like that...” Junsu chuckled. Yunho didn’t answer he just pulled Junsu into a hug.

“I love you...I love you...I love you...I love you” He repeated over and over again made Junsu chuckled.

“Aish...Just a minute ago you didn’t even answer my question, why suddenly say you love me?” Junsu teased as he tried to pull away. But Yunho didn’t let him. He held junsu tighter.

“Please just hug me back Susu...” Yunho begged. And Junsu just did as he was told.

“What’s wrong, Yunnie?” Junsu asked seriously. He felt something weird about Yunho’s act.

“I love you Susu...please remember that kay?” Yunho whispered, his voice shaking.

“I know, and I love you too...” Junsu replied as he tightened his hold on Yunho. “Can you tell me what’s wrong?” Junsu asked again.

“I think-k I just...” Yunho didn’t know if he should tell Junsu about it or not, it’s just too weird to him, and what would Junsu think if he knew? “I think I’m just tired...” Yunho thought that maybe God let him to fix every mess he had made and if this really is, he had no intention to ruin it.

“I told you...you need to rest...” Junsu said with a pout.

“M-mian...” Yunho said his voice is still shaking.

“Lets go to the bed...” Junsu let him go and stood up, reaching out his hand to Yunho. Yunho grabbed his hand and then they walked to the bed. They laid down and cover themselves with the blanket.

“Rest for a while then you can finish your work later...” Junsu smiled at him as he snuggled closer to Yunho.

“J-Junsu-yah...you’ll stay, right?” Yunho asked unsure.

“I don’t know...” Junsu teased but Yunho took it seriously.

“Please stay...I need you here, please Su...” Yunho pleaded. He was afraid, afraid to death that that the moment he would close his eyes Junsu would disappear.

“Of course I’ll stay Yunnie...I was just kidding...” Junsu said with a warm smile. “So sleep now, kay...” Junsu leaned forward and kissed Yunho’s cheek. “I love you...” He added before closing his eyes.

“I love you...” Yunho replied. He couldn’t sleep right now, he must stay awake and kept his arms around Junsu to make sure that Junsu wouldn’t disappear. ‘What the hell is happening? Was that all just a nightmare or this is the cruel joke? God please...tell me this is real...please tell me he’ll stay...please let me fix all the things, if this is another shot you give me to get him back, I promise I will do my best so that there’s won’t be any regret...’ Yunho prayed in his heart. He could tell that the event that happened before this was real, but then again, he couldn’t be here hugging Junsu if it’s real.

Yunho stay awake and kept holding Junsu, until the said boy was awake.

“Hi there” Yunho greeted him.

“Hi...” Junsu replied with a chuckle. Yunho kissed the top of Junsu’s hair.

“I missed this...” Yunho whispered.

“I missed this too...You are always busy till we can’t even cuddle like this anymore...” Junsu pouted.

“I’m sorry...I know I’m not being a good boyfriend...I’ll make it up for you...” Yunho said.

“Really?” Junsu beamed at him.

“Yep...now what do you want to do?” Yunho asked as he sat up.

“Ehmm...” Junsu thought for awhile. “I want to go to a beach!” Junsu said.

“Okay...lets go then...” Yunho said. He then pulled Junsu up and carried him to the bathroom. “Now, take a shower and get ready...I’ll make something to eat...” Yunho said and walked out the room.

Junsu just smiled at him and then took a shower. When he was ready he walked o the kitchen and found Yunho was preparing a picnic box full of food.

“Wow that looks too much...” Junsu said as he tiptoed from behind Yunho to take a look inside the box.

“Haha I know you eat a lot Susu...” Yunho teased, made him pouted.

“You meanie!” Junsu whined.

“Only to you...” Yunho chuckled then turn around and faced Junsu. “That’s because I love you...” Yunho said and leaned closer to kiss Junsu on the lips.

“Ewww you smelly! Go take a bath!” Junsu said and pushed Yunho away. Yunho just shook his head with a smile and walked to their room and took a shower.

‘Well maybe that really is just a dream...everything is normal right now...maybe it was just a warning for me because I’ve been a bad boyfriend for him...before it’s too late...’ Yunho thought to himself as he let the water sprayed on to him. When he was done, he walked out and searched for something to wear from the wardrobe.

“Wear the white shirt I bought you for your birthday!” Junsu said. Yunho turned around and found Junsu leaned on the doorframe.

“Wae?” Yunho asked smiling.

“You look soooo handsome when you wear it” Junsu replied.

Yunho just nodded and looked for the shirt, when he finished dressing he grabbed the car key and walked to the kitchen. He found Junsu and hugged him from behind.

“Are you ready?” He asked. Junsu just nodded and they walked out the house, entered the car and drove off.

“It’s gonna take awhile...why don’t you sleep?” Yunho said.

“Nah...I’m okay...Are you okay? I can drive if you tired...” Junsu looked over his lover and smiled.

“I’m okay...” Yunho replied with a smiled too. Junsu just nodded at Yunho’s word.

“It’s been awhile, hasn’t it?” Yunho said, Junsu looked at Yunho as if he had no idea what was Yunho talking about. “You and I have a ride like this, it’s been awhile since last time right?” Yunho explained.

“You were too busy with your work...” Junsu said with a pout.

“I know...mianhae Susu...Jeongmal mianhae...” Yunho said.

“You have to make it up for it!” Junsu threatened.

“I will, I definitely will...” Yunho answered. Junsu just smile when he heard that.

After a long drive, they finally arrived at the beach. They took out their belongings and walked to the sandy beach.

“Ahhh the smell of the sea...” Junsu said as he stretched out his arms.

“Lets eat something...I’m hungry...” Yunho said as he put the picnic basket on the sand and took a seat beside it. Junsu hop up beside him and leaned onto Yunho’s shoulder. Yunho took out a sandwich and handed it to Junsu. Junsu took and eat it.

“Yunho-yah...is it okay to leave your work like that?” Junsu asked all of sudden.

“It’s okay...I can finish it when we’re home later...” Yunho smiled down at Junsu.

“Yunho-yah...can we spend more time like this? I mean we need to spend more time for our relationship...” Junsu whispered his voice a bit shaking.

“I know...we’re not like we used to...I’m too busy with my work till I have no time to make my lover happy...I barely have some time to just stay with you, just cuddle up or even to have some talk...Mian...I don’t know what to say but say I’m sorry Susu-yah...” Yunho said as he put his arm over Junsu shoulder and pulled him closer.

“You’re forgiven...” Junsu looked up with his teary eyes to Yunho. “I love you so much, I’ll forgive you so easily...” Junsu chuckled as he kissed Yunho’s neck.

“Thanks you’re the most understanding lover in the world...” Yunho said.

“Ne, yunnie...I have a question...and you must answer it truthfully...” Junsu said as he moved in front of him.

“Okay...” Yunho smiled at his lover.

“Do I ever cross in your mind?”

“hmm no...” Yunho said made Junsu eyes widened.

“Mou? Next, do you like me?” Junsu looked up at him hopefully.

“Not really...” Yunho replied as he looked straight to the sea in front of them. Junsu felt sting feeling inside his heart.

“Do you want me to stay?”

“I don’t want to” Yunho just shook his head. Junsu eyes started to watered. ‘Does Yunho really like me? Why he said this?’ Junsu thought

“Would you do anything for me?” Yunho just stayed silent

“Would you even cry when I left?” Junsu kept asking him. Hoping that Yunho would tell him that this was a joke. After this morning he finally heard Yunho said he loved him now this? What the hell is wrong with his lover head?!

“Could you even choose between me and your life?” Junsu took a deep breath getting ready for the answer.

“My life...” Yunho said firmly.

“STOP IT! WHY YOU DO THIS TO ME! YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME!” Junsu stood up and ran away. But Yunho immediately ran after him and grabbed his hand. He pulled Junsu and hugged him tight. “LET GO! I SAID LET ME GO!” Junsu struggled to get free.

“Listen, you never come cross my mind because you have and will always be in my mind...I don’t like you, because I love you...I don’t want you to stay...because I NEED you to stay...I didn’t answer what would I do for you, because there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you...I wouldn’t cry if you left because I would die if you left...And I choose my life because you ARE my life...without you I can’t breath without you I can’t live...” Yunho said. He knew maybe that’s not what it looked like, because he even can’t spend time together with his lover. But he knew, since this is he heard all of those questions twice; he knew that that’s how he supposed to answer them, that’s how he supposed to do to his lover. And he promised to himself to never let himself hurt Junsu anymore. He knew that behind all the smiled that Junsu always give to him, he suffered because of his acts.

“Y-yunnie-yah...” Junsu was sobbing uncontrollably then. He couldn’t explain the feeling he felt inside his heart. The emotion was so strong that all he could do was crying. “I love you...” Junsu said.

“I love you too...” Yunho kissed the top of Junsu’s head made him looked up at him “Don’t cry anymore okay? Just smile...just smile for me...” Yunho said before he kissed Junsu’s lips tenderly. Junsu immediately returned the kiss.

“I promise I won’t cry anymore...” Junsu said with a beautiful smile of him.

“Okay...” Yunho said and then grabbed Junsu’s hand. He pulled Junsu back to the place they sat on before. Junsu sat on Yunho’s lap and Yunho’s put his arms around him. They cuddled up and looking at the sea before them till Junsu fell asleep. Yunho laid down and pulled Junsu with him. Then he too fell asleep.

“Have you learned? Have you realized what this means?” A voice said in Yunho’s deep slumber.

“What? Who are you? What do you mean?” Yunho asked back.

“Have you learned from this Yunho? Junsu is supposed to be here with me right now...he’s not supposed to stay there with you...He’s dead Yunho...and that’s all because of you...” The voice answered.

“I’ve learned so please don’t take him away from me...please...I can’t live without him...I know I’m not the best lover for him but I promise I’ll do my best to make him happy...I promise...please...” Yunho begged.

“Everything got a price to pay Yunho...I give you the opportunity and how you gonna pay it?” The voice asked again.

“I promise to make him happy...If I failed you can separate us...please just let me prove my word...” Yunho begged. And then he woke up. He looked around to find that Junsu wasn’t there.

“Junsu! JUNSU!” He called out. He stood up and looked around. He started to cry ‘Please, not again, please just let me be with him...’ he begged silently.

“JUNSU...JUNSU WHERE ARE YOU?” Yunho yelled again.

“Yunnie-yah, why are you yelling?” Junsu asked with a pout. His hand held 2 cans of coke.

“You scared me...please don’t leave like that again...please Su-ah...” Yunho said as he ran to Junsu and hugged him tight.

“I just went for awhile to get us something to drink...” Junsu replied.

“Junsu-yah...promise me you’ll stay with me, promise me you’ll be happy with me...” Yunho said desperately.

“Of course I’ll stay Yunnie...and I’ll always be happy when you stay here by my side...” Junsu said as he kissed Yunho shoulder.

“I promise I will always make you happy...I promise I won’t let you down...” Yunho said.

“You better keep your promise because that’s the price you have to pay...” Junsu replied.

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The Lake House

2009-09-10T04:57:13Z

Just a fic I wrote for last christmas...I just want to share it

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“Yunnie-yah...Where are we going to~?” Junsu asked cutely to his lover.

“Just see by yourself when we arrived okay?” Yunho replied as he buckled up his seatbelt.

“But I want to know~” Junsu pouted.

“Patients...” Yunho replied with a chuckle.

“But...”

“No more buts...” Yunho cut in and Junsu pouted even more. “Awww~ don’t pout like that...You know I can’t resist yours...” Yunho said and leaned closer. “Should I kiss this pout away?” And he pecked on Junsu pouting lips. Junsu just blushed and giggled cutely.

“Are we going now?” Junsu said.

“Ahh~ okay...” Yunho said and started the engine. And they drove off.

~ON THE WAY~

“Su...It’s a surprise and I dunno you’ll like it or not...” Yunho said breaking the silence between them.

“I haven’t seen it yet...How would I know...” Junsu replied. “But for me...Everything from you is always the best gifts I ever had...” Junsu replied with a beautiful smile plastered on his lips.

“But I guess you should wear something first...” Yunho said and Junsu gave him a questioned look. “You see, there’s a tie on the back seat...Use it as a blindfold, please? It should be a surprise you see?”

“But...”

“E-emm” Yunho shook his head. “No buts!” Yunho said.

“But Yunnie~” Junsu whined cutely and gave him, his best puppy eyes.

“No...They’re not working for me right now...” Yunho said.

“You meanie~” Junsu puffed his cheek but did as he was told. He tied the tie tight enough and now nothing he could see.

“We’re almost there...”

“Really?!” Junsu said excitedly.

“Yeah...”

~20 minutes later~

“Okay we’re arrived!” Yunho announced and turned off the engine.

“Yay!!!” Junsu cheered up. He heard Yunho opened his side door and the he heard the door by his side being opened.

“Give me your hand...” Yunho commanded. Junsu reached out his hand and Yunho grabbed it. He pulled Junsu out of the car slowly and led his way.

“Yunnie-ah...We’re not going to some place dangerous, right?” Junsu asked and Yunho just chuckled.

“Of course not...”

“No dangerous animal?”

“Nope...”

“No Junho-Hyung?”

“No”

“No angry Jae-Umma?”

“Nope...”

“No angry and porn-desperate Minnie?”

“Hell no...” Yunho shivered at the thought.

“No flirty Chunnie?”

“I won’t let he comes near you if he is on his flirty mood!” Yunho said protectively.

“Why not?” Junsu asked and stopped on his track.

“Because he’ll be so touchy and remember the last time I left you alone with him? He was all over you...”

“But we were just joking...”

“He’s groping you!”

“We’re just tickling each other...”

“But he’s...”

“You’re jealous?” Junsu asked with a tint of excitement and curious tone on his voice.

“Of course...” Yunho replied. And Junsu knew, if he could see Yunho, He must be puffing his cheeks right now.

“You know I love you right? And Chunnie-Hyung knows I’m yours...” Junsu explained.

“I love you too...” Yunho’s mood changed right away. “Okay...Back to our task...” Yunho said and led the way again.

Junsu heard some creaking noise, just like some gate being opened. Then they walked on grasses.

“Okay...are you ready?” Yunho asked.

“Hurry!!! Hurry!!!” Junsu said. And then Yunho opened the blindfold. Junsu adjusted his eyes and looked around.

His eyes traveled around the scenery before him. A simple modern-minimalist white house with a beautiful garden on the front yard.

“Why are we here?” Junsu turned around and looked at Yunho.

“Welcome home...” Yunho replied.

“Home?” Junsu looked at Yunho with a confused look and his face.

“Yes...Home...You like it?” Yunho said as he hugged Junsu from behind and put his chin on Su’s shoulder.

“How-w? Why-y?” Junsu was speechless.

“Lets go inside...” Yunho said with a smiled.

Once they’re inside Junsu was amazed by the interior of the house. All white furniture with some blue accent and what-so-ever things but still beautiful in his eyes.

“You like it?” Yunho asked again. Once again he pulled Junsu’s hand. He led Junsu to the back yard and made Junsu even more speechless. There in the back yard was a beautiful view of clear lake surrounded by forests and mountain not so far away. The view was so beautiful for words.

“Yunnie, it, it’s beautiful...” Junsu whispered.

“You like it?” Yunho once again asked.

“I love it!” Junsu said and then turned around and kissed Yunho on the lips. Yunho deepened the kiss. When the broke the kiss eventually Junsu was smiling sweetly and innocently at him.

“Happy birthday...” Yunho said and kissed Junsu’s forehead.

“Merry Christmas...” He kissed Junsu’s nose.

“And happy anniversary...” And then kissed Junsu on the lips again. The kiss was slowly but full of love and passion. Junsu put his arms around Yunho’s waist and deepened the kiss. They enjoyed the moment greatly. When they broke the kiss Yunho whispered, “I love you so much...”

“I love you with my life...” Junsu whispered back.

“I need you by my side always...” Yunho said.

“Me too...” Junsu smiled.

“I want you to stay with me...”

“So do I...”

“Will you marry me?” Yunho kneeled down and pulled something from his pocket. He took out a box and opened it, there’s a shiny ring in it. Junsu was speechless, tears glistening on his eyes. He didn’t know what to say, so he just nodded his head and then Yunho slipped the ring on his finger and kissed it.

“You are my everything...” Yunho said and hugged Junsu tight.

“You are my all Yunnie...I love you...I really do...” Junsu couldn’t hold his tears anymore. He let it flow, no need to feel embarrassed; they’re tears of happiness. Then Yunho pulled away as he felt Junsu’s sobbing gently.

“Why are you crying Susu?” Yunho asked worriedly. He wiped away the tears running down Junsu’s flawless cheeks, cupped it and kissed his eyelids.

“I-I’m just too happy...” Junsu shook his head gently and leaned on Yunho’s hands.

“Me too...” Yunho answered with a smile. He stroked Junsu’s cheeks lovingly. “Lets go inside...I’ll make us some lunch...” They went inside.

Once the lunch Yunho made done. They eat in silence and enjoy each other companion. Smiled sweetly to each other once in a while. After they’re done, Junsu insisted to wash the dishes and Yunho just watched him from the dining table. The view of Junsu’s back on him while he was washing the dished was indescribable. He loved it. He loved watching Junsu do the dishes with the sound of water running and clicking from the plate and once in awhile Junsu sang beautiful songs.

“I’m done” Junsu announced. He dried his hands and turned around to look at Yunho. “What will we do now?” He asked.

“Lets go to the living room...” He replied.

They went to the living room. The living room was neat and comfortable. They could see the lake through the big glasses as the wall. Yunho sat on the couch and pulled Junsu with him. He threw his arms around Junsu’s waist securely and cuddled him.

“Why near the lake?” Junsu suddenly asked as he comforted himself in Yunho’s embrace.

“Because we’re HoSu...” Yunho explained. (If I’m not mistaken...HoSu in Korean means lake...Hahaha sorry if I made mistake...^o^)

“Why ‘Happy Birthday’?”

“Because I feel guilty because I couldn’t spend all day with you on your birthday...I even didn’t get a proper present for you...So, it’s your birthday gift...” Yunho explained.

“Why ‘Merry Christmas’? The Christmas is still tomorrow you know...” Junsu chuckled.

“Just pretend that Christmas come early for us...” Yunho shrugged it of.

“And why ‘Happy anniversary’?”

“Because the day after tomorrow is our debut anniversary...And the day I made up my mind that I DO love you...” Yunho replied and kissed on top of Junsu’s hair. Junsu pulled himself up and turned around on Yunho’s lap and faced Yunho, his legs on either side of Yunho.

“And how can I don’t know that?” Junsu asked and pouted.

“I didn’t confess to you because I didn’t know that you feel the same way. I was afraid that it would affect our relationship. I didn’t want to make a stupid mistake and ruin our debut...I’ve known you for the longest than the other but I still couldn’t figure that you loved me back right then...It’s kinda hard for me to tell...I thought you just look me as your hyung or bestfriend...” Yunho explained with closed eyes.

“But I’ve loved you long time before our debut...I guess it’s since our first meeting and trainee times...” Junsu said thoughtfully.

“It’s okay...I don’t care anymore...I have you now...I know about the hardship we’ve been through...let it as the part of our memories...Right now I just want you stay in my arms...” Yunho said. “I love you and you love me...That’s enough for me...I don’t need anything anymore...”

“Saranghae...Saranghae yongwonhi Yunnie-yah...” Junsu replied.

“Happy anniversary because on January 1st is our 4th anniversary...But today I’ve proposed you so we can make this day as our anniversary too, theoretically...Well yeah whatever...” Yunho said with a chuckle. Junsu leaned down and laid his head on Yunho’s shoulder.

“As long as I’m with you...I don’t care either...” Junsu kissed Yunho’s neck and closed his eyes.

They spent the rest of the day, Christmas day, the following day until January 1st in their new house, The Lake House. The HoSu House...

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Breath!!! Push!!! TWIN!!!

2009-01-22T07:35:53Z

“Y-yunnie...Hurts...” Junsu whispered. His forehead wetted by sweats, the pain on his bulging stomach was too much to bear. Yunho was trying to concentrate between keep his eyes on the road, speeding up his car to arrive at the hospital as fast as he could without making both of them in danger and tried to calm down his wife.

“Stay calm SuSu...breath...1...2...3 breath...Gosh what the hell is fuckin’ happen now?! Traffic jam?! Shit!!!” Yunho’s mind was total chaos now.

“AHHHHHH!!!” Junsu suddenly screamed. Shocked the living daylights of Yunho.

“Su...Su...What happened?!” Yunho grabbed Junsu’s hand and Junsu squeezed it iron grip.

“I-I think I just broke my water...” Junsu said breathless. Beside the sweats running down his temple now tears wetting his chubby cheeks. Yunho couldn’t say anything right then. He just kept driving the fastest and tried to forget the pain on his hand. Junsu felt worse than him, he thought.

Not so long after, they arrived at the hospital. Yunho went straight to the reception and told the nurses the emergency state. They rushed Junsu in to the E.R. Yunho couldn’t get in, the nurses forbid him. But he knew Junsu would have a terrible time and Junsu needed him by his side.

Inside the emergency room, a huffing Junsu, lying in the comforter, was told by the nurses to breath in steady breaths to relieve the contractions.

“1… 2… 3… breathe.”

“1… 2… 3… breathe.”

“1… 2… 3… breathe.”

“I n-need my husband...” Junsu whispered.

“You’ll be fine, the doctor will arrive soon...” One of the nurse told.

“I NEED HIM!!!” Junsu scream as another wave of contraction stroke him. The nurses was all silence right then. The look full of pain written all over Junsu’s face. The other nurse went outside and called Yunho.

“SuSu...Relax...breath...breath...” Yunho ran towards Junsu’s side and grabbed his hand.

“Yun...Too much hurt...” Junsu sobbed.

“The doctor is here...” The nurse announced.

“Well...Just relax and breath...I know it hurts so badly but your husband is here and nothing bad would happen okay?” The doctor said and the prepared anything he needed with the help of the nurses.

“Su...Just do your best okay...I’m here, don’t afraid of anything kay? I love you so much...And our babies...Soon we can see them...I love you...I love you...I love you...” Yunho whispered on Junsu’s ear and kissed all over his sweaty face. The grip on his hand tightened even more. This is the life and death battle for Junsu. But the trusted Junsu and the doctor would do their best.

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Sounds of Junsu’s scream of pained filled the room for the following hours straight. The doctor kept doing his job and Yunho kept whispered to Junsu’s ear words of support and told him how much he loved Junsu. He didn’t care either Junsu heard him or not but all he care that Junsu realized that he was there, right beside him, kept him accompany.

Smell of blood lingered on the air. Junsu was so pale. Yunho was so afraid that something would happen, but once again, he had faith in Junsu. Junsu kept struggled on his bed, tried to endure the extreme pain he felt and on the other part he supposed to push with al the might he had at the time.

“Push...breath...okay...relax...a little bit more...” The doctor said. “Okay...here we go again...inhale...now, push, push...” The doctor commanded. Junsu pushed with all the strength he got and scream.

“ARGHHHHHH!!!” And then a sound of crying baby filled the room. Yunho look at the little thing covered with tint of blood on the nurse’s arms.

“Okay...one more...are you okay Junsu-sshi?” The doctor looked a little bit worried. Junsu had lost a lot of blood. Now he looked too pale and sweating. His lips chapped and he was hardly breathing. Junsu just nodded his head. Squeezed Yunho’s hand a bit since he almost feel his hand going numb.

“SuSu...I love you...I love you...hang on, kay Babe...Please, just a little bit more...” Yunho couldn’t help the feeling flooded his heart, mind and soul. He was afraid; gosh he was afraid to death. Junsu looked so tired and it was no good for him. But on the other hand he was happy and proud of him. He made the dream come true for Yunho. He wouldn’t ask for more.

“Y-Yun...I’m t-tired...” Junsu whispered tiredly.

“Junsu-sshi...hang on...You must stay awake...” The doctor replied, giving a warning. If Junsu sleep or passed out in the middle of laboring it would be dangerous for him because he could slip out.

“Su...Babe...please...stay with me, kay...p-please...” Yunho begged softly on Junsu’s ear. He was so afraid of losing Junsu. He let the tears flowed down his cheeks. “Su...just one more...okay...and we have our babies...”

“Y-yun...don’t cry-y...AHHHH!!!” Junsu screamed as he felt another contraction.

“Okay...here we go the twin...breath...1...2...3...breath...1...2...3...and push...” The doctor said. And Junsu just repeated the whole scene again but with lack of power. The doctor was so aware of his tiredness that’s why he put a slow pace this time, not making Junsu effort so much power that would make him even in danger.

Junsu didn’t care about anything else right then. He used all his power to giving birth for both of the babies. He could handle the pain. He didn’t care if he dies after this. He just wanted to make sure the babies were safe. And then another sound of crying stopped all his train of worries. He smiled weakly at Yunho who was kissing his forehead and whispered words of love, how proud he was of him, how cute their babies were. All things that not Junsu understood at time. He let the darkness engulfed him and the he closed his eyes, too tired, he thought.

“SU!!!”

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4 hour passed by and Junsu still hadn’t showed any sign he would wake up soon. Yunho was so worried when Junsu passed out after the labouring. The doctor told him that it could be dangerous for Junsu, it made him afraid even more. After seeing Junsu struggled to giving birth for the babies, losing sooooo much blood and looked as pale as a corpse, made Yunho blamed himself. He made Junsu went through this. He made the one he loved betting his life just to giving birth for the proves of their love. He couldn’t find any reason for loving Junsu even more. Junsu had done everything for both of them.

“God...please, don’t take him from me...” Yunho whispered as he leaned to Junsu and kissed his forehead. Suddenly the door flung open.

“Yunho-yah...How’s Junsu?” Jae asked worriedly as he, Changmin, and Yoochun went around the bed.

“The doctor said it’s not good for him if he not awake immediately...” Yunho replied not once looking at others than Junsu’s pale face.

“Yun...everything’s gonna be find...Junsu’s the strongest among us, remember?” Yoochun reassured. Yunho just nodded.

“And hyung...I bet Su also wants to see the babies...” Minnie said with a smile. He went to behind Yunho where 2 cribs with 2 cute little babies laid on it. “Awww~ hyung how come you have cute babies like them...” Min teased.

“Really?” Jae said as he joined Changmin. “Have you named them?” Jae asked as he took one of the babies, the female one, onto his arms. The baby wiggled cutely on Jae’s arms.

“I haven’t, I must wait for Junsu...” Yunho said.

“Can I, Umma?” Minnie gave Jae a puppy eyes.

“Be careful! Be gentle!” Jae warned. Changmin do as was told. He picked the baby gently from the crib and pulled it closed to his chest. The baby didn’t open its eyes. Just smiled as warm enveloped him.

“A twin...baby girl and baby boy...Can you be luckier than this Yun?” Yoochun teased as he approached Minnie.

“I won’t ask for more, I just want Junsu to wake up...” Yunho said. He tightened his gripped on Junsu’s hand.

“Hello, little one...This is Uncle Minnie...Aw~ You are so cuuuuuute~” Changmin cooed. The baby just smiled. Changmin couldn’t guess that the baby was still sleeping or listening to him. Since the baby couldn’t open their eyes yet.

“If you are their uncle then, Jaejie and me are their grandparents?” Yoochun said as he put his arms around Jaejoong’s waist. Jaejoong was blushing deeply.

“Hahahaha! Jaejie-Halmoni and Yoochun-Haraboji?!” Changmin burst into laughter.

“YAH! YAH! YAH! That’s not funny!” Yoochun said and gave Changmin a glare. But Changmin just laughed even louder. Suddenly the baby on his arms was crying.

“Omo! Omo! Hyung...help me!” Changmin panicked and Yunho grabbed the baby from Changmin’s arms gently and calmed the baby down. Rocking the baby slowly till the baby stopped crying.

“Y-you make my baby crying!” Junsu whispered, loud enough for all of them to hear.

“Su! Your awake!” Yunho said happily as he walked closer to the bed again. “You made me worry!” Yunho said before leaned down and kissed Junsu’s chapped lips.

“Yah! Be careful! You can squeeze the baby!” Jae warned Yunho who immediately straightened himself and left Junsu chuckled.

“I better called the doctor...” Yoochun excused himself and went out the room.

“How do you feel, sweetie?” Jaejoong asked and went to Junsu’s bed other side.

“I’m fine Umma...Just lil tired...” Junsu assured with a smile.

“You made Yunnie-hyung worried to death...” Changmin said nonchalantly.

“Really?” Junsu looked at Yunho. “Sorry Yunnie-yah...” Junsu said with an apologetic look.

“It’s okay...as long as you are save now...” Yunho replied.

“How do you feel Junsu-sshi?” The doctor said as he came in with Yoochun.

“I’m fine...Just a little pain and tired...” Junsu explained.

“Okay...That’s good! Just make sure to have your medicines in time, it’ll help you to heal faster...Okay that’s all...and by the way...Your babies is too cute...All the nurses who already saw them and even who haven’t can’t stop talking about them...hahahaha” The doctor said and all of them just smiled to each other. Then the doctor excused himself and left.

“Awwww~ everybody would say that your babies are toooooooo cute...they’re the cutest in Korea!” Jaejoong proclaimed.

“NO!!! THEY’RE THE CUTEST IN THE WORLD!!!” Changmin shouted and made the babies cried again. Both of them right now.

“Oh my God! Min! You’re too loud!” Jaejoong said and then tried to calm the baby on his arms down but they’re still crying.

“Let me Umma...” Junsu said and reached out his arms. Jaejoong put the baby carefully on Junsu’s arms. “Shhhs...shhhs...Umma’s here...stop crying okay...” Junsu calmed the baby down and magically they stopped crying at the same time and just sobbing a little. “Good babies...Love you both...” Junsu whispered as he looked from the baby on his arms and in Yunho’s arms.

“Wow...Umma power!” Min said in amazement.

“Shut up!” Yoochun slapped the back of Min’s head.

“Umma! Appa hit me!” Changmin ratted on Jae.

“Chunnie!” Jae gave him a glare and Yoochun just gulped down. They all chuckled. Yunho went to sit on the bed and gave Junsu the view of their baby boy.

“They have your eyes and nose...” Junsu said as he looked at them carefully.

“And they have you chubby cheeks...” Yunho replied.

“They’re too cute for their own good, aren’t they?” Junsu said with a chuckle.

“Just like you...They got it from your adorable feature...” Yunho said.

“And what’s their name?” Junsu asked.

“I haven’t named them...” Yunho replied.

“Really? Ehmmm...I want to name the baby girl...Seong, Seong-Hee...”

“Seong-Hee? Jung Seong-Hee then...And the baby boy?” Yunho asked.

“You name him!”

“Ehmmm since they’re twin we must find a similar name...Jung...Seong...ehmmm...JUNG SEONG HOON!!!” Yunho said excitedly.

“Seong-Hee and Seong Hoon...” Changmin tried to pronounce it. “They’re sound weird...But I’ll get use to it...” Changmin said with a smile.

“Wow...a big family now we have then...” Jaejoong smiled.

“Yep...and we’re waiting for another baby from you guys...” Junsu teased and now Jaejoong was blushing crimson red.

“Yah! Stop teasing him!” Yoochun said in a protective sound as he hugged Jae from behind.

“Yah! Stop your mushy act! I’m going blind!!!” Changmin chuckled as he pretend to close his eyes dramatically.

“Do you want to have children of our own Jae? I’m kinda bored with minnie though...Then we can throw him out and sent him to his dear Shiwonnie...” Yoochun said as he gave Min a smirk and Changmin just pointed out his tongue on Chun. “Well we must double up our try then...” Yoochun whispered naughtily on Jae’s ear and made Jae blushed even more if it possible. And they all burst into laughter.

“Umma!!! You won’t let him, right?” Changmin gave Jae his best puppy eyes.

“I,I don’t know...” Jae replied shyly. And Changmin’s jaw dropped to the floor.

“Our happy family...I love you...” Yunho kissed Junsu’s cheek.

“Love you too...Love our babies...” Junsu replied.

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Jae-Umma, Dinner, They’re COMING!!!

2009-01-22T07:35:18Z

“Yunnie...You will come home right away right?” Junsu asked Yunho as he walked Yunho to the car.

“Yeah...Promise I won’t come home late...” Yunho said then kissed Junsu’s forehead.

“Okay...I’ll wait for you!” Junsu said cheerfully.

“Saranghae...” Yunho pulled Junsu into a hug. “Call me right away if there something happen kay?” Yunho told his preggy wife.

“Of course Babe...” Junsu said reassuringly.

“I better call Jae-Umma first so that you’ll have companion...” Yunho said as he pulled away and pulled out his cellphone.

“I’m okay Yunnie yah...” Junsu said then pouted at Yunho over-protectiveness.

“Is not about it Su...The doctor told me that you’ll giving birth in the matter of days...I won’t let something happen to you without somebody by your side...” Yunho explained. “Jae, Are you busy today?” Yunho asked as the man on the other side of phone answered. “Ah...You’re planning to come here? Good...No, I’ll just go till this evening...Okay...Nae...Thanks Umma...” Yunho said before hung up the phone.

“See, I already asked Jae-Umma to come here...” Junsu said and pouted even more.

“I just want to make sure Babe...” Yunho said. “Should I kiss that pout away?” Yunho asked as he leaned close to his wifey.

“Yah!” Junsu slapped Yunho’s back of the head playfully. “You perv!” Junsu said and laughed at Yunho’s silly expression.

“It hurts, you know!” Yunho puffed his cheek and pouted.

“I’m sorry kay?” Junsu said and kissed Yunho’s pout. When he was about to pull away, Yunh grabbed his waist and deepened the kiss. After some time finally they pulled away.

“Thanks for the kiss and I love you Susu...Take care of our babies, kay?” Yunho said as he gently rubbed Junsu’s somehow flustered cheeks. Junsu just leaned to the touch and nodded. “I gotta go...See ya” Yunho said before he entered his car.

“Be careful nae, Yunnie yah...” Junsu said, waved at his handsome hubby. Yunho waved back and drove away. Junsu waited until Yunho’s car out of sight then walked back into the house.

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“Umma...I want to make a dinner for Yunnie tonight...” Junsu said as Jaejoong entered the house.

“Eh? In what occasion?” Jaejoong simply asked.

“I just want to make him a fine dinner since it’s been a long time since we both enjoy a wonderful dinner...” Junsu explained.

“Ah~ I see...Then should we cook now?” Jaejoong asked.

“There’s nothing much left in the refri...I guess we should go shopping first...” Junsu said.

“Okay...I’ll wait here...Go change you clothes!” Jaejoong replied. Then Junsu immediately walked to his shared bedroom and a couple minutes later he walked out with new outfit. “I don’t know why but it seems like you look more and more beautiful each day...” Jaejoong said in amazement.

“Huh?” Junsu said and blushed. “T-Thanks...” Junsu said sheepishly.

“You’re welcome Honey!” Jaejoong said and then grabbed Junsu’s hand. “Lets go!” Jaejoong said then they went out.

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Couple of hours later...

“You can put the meat in the oven later when Yunho got home, grill it for 45 minutes then check it if it needs another 15 minutes or not...After it finished to can put the sauce the grill again in low temperature just to make the aroma and flavor stronger, for at least 5 minutes...You got it?” Jaejoong explained as he put the said meat in the refrigerator for marinade.

“Argesimida Umma...” Junsu said with a bright smile.

“Ahhh~ aren’t you such a cute wifey...” Jae said then pinched Junsu’s cheeks playfully.

“Why everybody’s love to pinch my cheeks...” Junsu said as he puffed his cheeks.

“Because you look soooooo~ adorable with that chubby cheeks of yours...” Jaejoong explain with a beautiful smile on his lips.

“Really? But I thought I’ve been put a lot of weight...Look! I look like a grizzly bear, don’t I?” Junsu said then turned around in spot to make Jae look at his body perfectly.

“Su-ah...It’s okay...You’re still the cutest pregnant wife in the world...” Jae said. “Let’s go to the living room, you look tired...” Jae said then pulled Junsu to sit on the sofa

“I can’t wait to see my children Umma...” Junsu said as he leaned his head on Jae’s shoulder.

“Me too...I bet they would look A WAYYYY~ adorable than you...” Jae said with a chuckle.

“Then, should I jealous?” Junsu immediately asked.

“Why should you?! I mean, gosh, you’ll always have a place on everybody’s hearts Su...And I bet your children would too...” Jae explained as he brushed Junsu’s hair lovingly.

“Hooamh...” Junsu yawned as he felt Jae’s hand on his hair. “I’m so sleepy...” Junsu said.

“Go to sleep then...I’ll stay...” Jae said. Not so long after Junsu fell asleep. Jae slowly rose up and laid Junsu on the soft sofa. He went to the bedroom to grabbed pillow and blanket. Once Junsu comfortably slept with pillow and warm with blanket he sat on the other sofa and watched TV.

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3 hours later...

“Su...Wake up Honey...” Jae tried to wake Junsu up.

“Hmmm...” Junsu snuggled in his blanket.

“Wake up Su...You should take a bath and prepare the table...” Jaejoong said and immediately Junsu’s eyes snapped open.

“What time is it Umma?” Junsu said as he rubbed his eyes.

“In an hour Yunho would be here...” Jae said.

“Really? Then, how about the steak? Gosh did I sleep that long?” Junsu said then sat up.

“It’s done...Now lets prepare the table...” Jae said.

“Umma~ I LOVE YOU FULL!!!” Junsu said then kissed Jae’s cheek.

“Omo~ what a sweet child I have here...” Jae said with a big smile.

“And what a full-caring Umma we have here too!!!” Junsu said excitedly. Then they went to prepare the table.

After they done, Jaejoong excused himself so that he could go home and took care of his other baby, Changmin. Of course Junsu let him but not without a bunch of food Junsu pushed him to bring.

Exactly after he finished prepare everything, Yunho got home.

“I’m home...” Yunho said as he entered the house.

“Welcome back...” Junsu ran to the front door to welcome his hubby.

“Woah!!! No need to run Susu...What if you tripped and fell?” Yunho said.

“But I just want to welcome you...” Junsu pouted.

“Okay, okay...Now where’s my welcome kiss?” Yunho pointed to his lips. And Junsu gave him a quick peck on the lips and smiled to his lovely husband. “Thank you...Love you...” Yunho said.

“Yunnie...Hurry up take a bath!!!” Junsu said.

“Wae yo?” Yunho asked.

“We have dinner...Jae-Umma and I cooked it...Now hurry!” Junsu explained an pushed Yunho to the bedroom. Yunho took a shower immediately and changed into some casual clothes.

Once he walked out the bedroom, He saw Junsu busy prepared the dishes. “Need any help?” He asked Junsu.

“No, It’s okay...I’m done...Now sit and I’ll prepare it for you...” Junsu said and smiled wonderfully to his Babe.

“Okay...” Yunho said and sat on his chair then Junsu served the appetizer, mushroom cream soup. Junsu sat right across Yunho. “Bon Appetite...” Yunho said and took a spoon of the soup and tasted it.

“How do you think?” Junsu said with a curious expression across his face.

“Ehmmm...It-it’s not that good...” Yunho said.

“Really? Gosh...” Junsu said and had a taste himself.

“KIDDING!!! GOTCHA!!!” Yunho suddenly said.

“Yah! Don’t do that! I really thought that it doesn’t taste good!” Junsu pouted.

“Awww~ Babe sorrrrry, kay?” Yunho said. “Everything you cooked for me always tastes the best Susu...So don’t be mad at me, kay...” Yunho explained.

“Really?” Junsu gleamed.

“Yeph...You’re the best cook in the world!!!” Yunho announced. “*cough*but right after our moms and Jae-Umma*cough*cough*”

“YUNNIE!!!” Junsu stood up and went to Yunho’s chair and tickled him.

“Yah!!!Stop it!!!Okay!!!Okay!!!Sorry!!!” Yunho begged between his laugh. Junsu stopped and went back to his chair.

Then they finished the appetizer. Junsu picked the dishes away and took out the steak from the oven.

“WOW!!! That smells good...” Yunho looked over his shoulder to look at Junsu and felt his mouth watered.

“Really?” Junsu said. He cut the steak and served it on the plate. Yunho sat himself properly so that Junsu could prepare it for him. But when he turned around he heard a cracking voice and immediately turned back around.

“SU!!!” He ran to Junsu who was bowed and held onto the kitchen counter and his bulging tummy. “WHAT’S WRONG?! SU, TALK TO ME BABE!!!” Yunho panicked.

“Y-yunnie...They’re coming...” Junsu said with a weak smile to his Yunnie, sweat covering his face which became a lil bit pale.

“REALLY?!” Yunho asked and Junsu just nodded weakly. “GOSH!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO? WHAT SHOULD I DO?” Yunho was really panic.

“Yu-Yunnie...C-car...Hos-pital...HURRY!!!” Junsu said.

“AH!!! RIGHT!!!” Yunho immediately pulled Junsu up and carried him bridal style. Even though Junsu gained a lot of weight but somehow he got the power to carry him with 2 babies with him. He grabbed the key hardly and hurriedly closed the door and went to his SUV.

“Yun, L-lock the door...” Junsu said as he being laid on the passenger seat.

“Nah...I’ll call Chunnie to pick some cloth and others later...” Yunho immediately rushed to the hospital.

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Jae-Umma, Dinner, They’re COMING!!!

2008-12-25T06:33:26Z

“Yunnie...You will come home right away right?” Junsu asked Yunho as he walked Yunho to the car. “Yeah...Promise I won’t come home late...” Yunho said then kissed Junsu’s forehead. “Okay...I’ll wait for you!” Junsu said cheerfully. “Saranghae...” Yunho pulled Junsu into a hug. “Call me right away if there something happen kay?” Yunho told his preggy wife. “Of course Babe...” Junsu said reassuringly. “I better call Jae-Umma first so that you’ll have companion...” Yunho said as he pulled away and pulled out his cellphone. “I’m okay Yunnie yah...” Junsu said then pouted at Yunho over-protectiveness. “Is not about it Su...The doctor told me that you’ll giving birth in the matter of days...I won’t let something happen to you without somebody by your side...” Yunho explained. “Jae, Are you busy today?” Yunho asked as the man on the other side of phone answered. “Ah...You’re planning to come here? Good...No, I’ll just go till this evening...Okay...Nae...Thanks Umma...” Yunho said before hung up the phone. “See, I already asked Jae-Umma to come here...” Junsu said and pouted even more. “I just want to make sure Babe...” Yunho said. “Should I kiss that pout away?” Yunho asked as he leaned close to his wifey. “Yah!” Junsu slapped Yunho’s back of the head playfully. “You perv!” Junsu said and laughed at Yunho’s silly expression. “It hurts, you know!” Yunho puffed his cheek and pouted. “I’m sorry kay?” Junsu said and kissed Yunho’s pout. When he was about to pull away, Yunh grabbed his waist and deepened the kiss. After some time finally they pulled away. “Thanks for the kiss and I love you Susu...Take care of our babies, kay?” Yunho said as he gently rubbed Junsu’s somehow flustered cheeks. Junsu just leaned to the touch and nodded. “I gotta go...See ya” Yunho said before he entered his car. “Be careful nae, Yunnie yah...” Junsu said, waved at his handsome hubby. Yunho waved back and drove away. Junsu waited until Yunho’s car out of sight then walked back into the house. ---------------------------------------- “Umma...I want to make a dinner for Yunnie tonight...” Junsu said as Jaejoong entered the house. “Eh? In what occasion?” Jaejoong simply asked. “I just want to make him a fine dinner since it’s been a long time since we both enjoy a wonderful dinner...” Junsu explained. “Ah~ I see...Then should we cook now?” Jaejoong asked. “There’s nothing much left in the refri...I guess we should go shopping first...” Junsu said. “Okay...I’ll wait here...Go change you clothes!” Jaejoong replied. Then Junsu immediately walked to his shared bedroom and a couple minutes later he walked out with new outfit. “I don’t know why but it seems like you look more and more beautiful each day...” Jaejoong said in amazement. “Huh?” Junsu said and blushed. “T-Thanks...” Junsu said sheepishly. “You’re welcome Honey!” Jaejoong said and then grabbed Junsu’s hand. “Lets go!” Jaejoong said then they went out. ---------------------------------------- Couple of hours later... “You can put the meat in the oven later when Yunho got home, grill it for 45 minutes then check it if it needs another 15 minutes or not...After it finished to can put the sauce the grill again in low temperature just to make the aroma and flavor stronger, for at least 5 minutes...You got it?” Jaejoong explained as he put the said meat in the refrigerator for marinade. “Argesimida Umma...” Junsu said with a bright smile. “Ahhh~ aren’t you such a cute wifey...” Jae said then pinched Junsu’s cheeks playfully. “Why everybody’s love to pinch my cheeks...” Junsu said as he puffed his cheeks. “Because you look soooooo~ adorable with that chubby cheeks of yours...” Jaejoong explain with a beautiful smile on his lips. “Really? But I thought I’ve been put a lot of weight...Look! I look like a grizzly bear, don’t I?” Junsu said then turned around in spot to make Jae look at his body perfectly. “Su-ah...It’s okay...You’re still the cutest pregnant wife in the world...” Jae said. “Let’s go to the living room, you look tired...” Jae said then pulled Junsu to sit on the sofa “I can’t wait to see my children Umma...” Junsu said as he leaned his head on Jae’s shoulder. “Me too...I bet they would look A WAYYYY~ adorable than you...” Jae said with a chuckle. “Then, should I jealous?” Junsu immediately asked. “Why should you?! I mean, gosh, you’ll always have a place on everybody’s hearts Su...And I bet your children would too...” Jae explained as he brushed Junsu’s hair lovingly. “Hooamh...” Junsu yawned as he felt Jae’s hand on his hair. “I’m so sleepy...” Junsu said. “Go to sleep then...I’ll stay...” Jae said. Not so long after Junsu fell asleep. Jae slowly rose up and laid Junsu on the soft sofa. He went to the bedroom to grabbed pillow and blanket. Once Junsu comfortably slept with pillow and warm with blanket he sat on the other sofa and watched TV. ---------------------------------------- 3 hours later... “Su...Wake up Honey...” Jae tried to wake Junsu up. “Hmmm...” Junsu snuggled in his blanket. “Wake up Su...You should take a bath and prepare the table...” Jaejoong said and immediately Junsu’s eyes snapped open. “What time is it Umma?” Junsu said as he rubbed his eyes. “In an hour Yunho would be here...” Jae said. “Really? Then, how about the steak? Gosh did I sleep that long?” Junsu said then sat up. “It’s done...Now lets prepare the table...” Jae said. “Umma~ I LOVE YOU FULL!!!” Junsu said then kissed Jae’s cheek. “Omo~ what a sweet child I have here...” Jae said with a big smile. “And what a full-caring Umma we have here too!!!” Junsu said excitedly. Then they went to prepare the table. After they done, Jaejoong excused himself so that he could go home and took care of his other baby, Changmin. Of course Junsu let him but not without a bunch of food Junsu pushed him to bring. Exactly after he finished prepare everything, Yunho got home. “I’m home...” Yunho said as he entered the house. “Welcome back...” Junsu ran to the front door to welcome his hubby. “Woah!!! No need to run Susu...What if you tripped and fell?” Yunho said. “But I just want to welcome you...” Junsu pouted. “Okay, okay...Now where’s my welcome kiss?” Yunho pointed to his lips. And Junsu gave him a quick peck on the lips and smiled to his lovely husband. “Thank you...Love you...” Yunho said. “Yunnie...Hurry up take a bath!!!” Junsu said. “Wae yo?” Yunho asked. “We have dinner...Jae-Umma and I cooked it...Now hurry!” Junsu explained an pushed Yunho to the bedroom. Yunho took a shower immediately and changed into some casual clothes. Once he walked out the bedroom, He saw Junsu busy prepared the dishes. “Need any help?” He asked Junsu. “No, It’s okay...I’m done...Now sit and I’ll prepare it for you...” Junsu said and smiled wonderfully to his Babe. “Okay...” Yunho said and sat on his chair then Junsu served the appetizer, mushroom cream soup. Junsu sat right across Yunho. “Bon Appetite...” Yunho said and took a spoon of the soup and tasted it. “How do you think?” Junsu said with a curious expression across his face. “Ehmmm...It-it’s not that good...” Yunho said. “Really? Gosh...” Junsu said and had a taste himself. “KIDDING!!! GOTCHA!!!” Yunho suddenly said. “Yah! Don’t do that! I really thought that it doesn’t taste good!” Junsu pouted. “Awww~ Babe sorrrrry, kay?” Yunho said. “Everything you cooked for me always tastes the best Susu...So don’t be mad at me, kay...” Yunho explained. “Really?” Junsu gleamed. “Yeph...You’re the best cook in the world!!!” Yunho announced. “*cough*but right after our moms and Jae-Umma*cough*cough*” “YUNNIE!!!” Junsu stood up and went to Yunho’s chair and tickled him. “Yah!!!Stop it!!!Okay!!!Okay!!!Sorry!!!” Yunho begged between his laugh. Junsu stopped and went back to his chair. Then they finished the appetizer. Junsu picked the dishes away and took out the steak from the oven. “WOW!!! That smells good...” Yunho looked over his shoulder to look at Junsu and felt his mouth watered. “Really?” Junsu said. He cut the steak and served it on the plate. Yunho sat himself properly so that Junsu could prepare it for him. But when he turned around he heard a cracking voice and immediately turned back around. “SU!!!” He ran to Junsu who was bowed and held onto the kitchen counter and his bulging tummy. “WHAT’S WRONG?! SU, TALK TO ME BABE!!!” Yunho panicked. “Y-yunnie...They’re coming...” Junsu said with a weak smile to his Yunnie, sweat covering his face which became a lil bit pale. “REALLY?!” Yunho asked and Junsu just nodded weakly. “GOSH!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO? WHAT SHOULD I DO?” Yunho was really panic. “Yu-Yunnie...C-car...Hos-pital...HURRY!!!” Junsu said. “AH!!! RIGHT!!!” Yunho immediately pulled Junsu up and carried him bridal style. Even though Junsu gained a lot of weight but somehow he got the power to carry him with 2 babies with him. He grabbed the key hardly and hurriedly closed the door and went to his SUV. “Yun, L-lock the door...” Junsu said as he being laid on the passenger seat. “Nah...I’ll call Chunnie to pick some cloth and others later...” Yunho immediately rushed to the hospital. ----------------------------------------

You know what? You don’t love me…

2008-11-21T04:07:10Z

Sorry for any grammar mistake

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I looked at you and the man who hugged you securely. You smiled happily as if you were the luckiest man in the world because you have him. Yeah you have him. Park Yoochun, the most romantic and sweetest man in the world. Well at least yes for you. He was the one who took away your heart. Made you truly madly deeply in love with him.

It broke my heart, did you know?

It hurt me enough to kill me softly deep inside. Why it wasn’t me? Why it wasn’t me, the one who owned your heart?

I’m Jung Yunho, you bestfriend for almost all of your lifetime? Yeah right…I’m just your bestfriend, not more and not less. Someone who you could tell everything to, but not the only one you love to.

Why in the world I must stay by your side now? You got him, and I’m just a useless person for you now. Just let me break my promise to you now. Just let me go from your side. I didn’t want to be a part of your life anymore.

Can I Su? Would you let me break my promise?

~FLASHBACK~

A 5 years old toddler was sobbing hard on the older kid’s embrace. The two of them were on the ground with clothes full of dirt and even tints of blood.

“Shh…shh…It's okay now Su…Don’t cry anymore okay?” The older hugged the crying boy tighter.

“Yun…*sob…They-y hurt-t me…*sob…Look I’m-m bleeding-g…It hurts a lot-t…*sob…” Little trembling Junsu cried and showed his wounded knees and hands to Yunho.

“Is it really hurt?” Yunho examined the wounds and Junsu nodded as an answer. “I’ll get them tomorrow…Now stop cry okay? Or I’ll leave you alone here” Yunho said. And it only made Junsu cry even harder.

“*sob…Yunnie-e…*sob…You’re a-a m-meannie!*hiccup…*you want to-o l-leave me alone?*sob…w-what if they come-comeback and bully-y…*sob…me aga-again?*more sob…” Junsu pushed Yunho away, hugged his leg and laid his head on his wounded knees. Yunho tried to pull him again and hug him but the other boy just stayed that way.

“Su…I’m sorry okay? Don’t cry…because seeing you cry makes me want to cry too…*soft sob…stop-p cry Su…” Yunho couldn’t hold back his tears anymore. When Junsu felt the other boy slight trembling body and heard his friend soft sob, he looked up at Yunho.

“Yunnie-ah mian…mian-nhae…*sob…I stop crying…Yunnie don’t cry just because of me-e*sob…” Junsu hugged Yunho.

“I-I’m not crying!” Yunho lied and Junsu chuckled. “It's my fault…If I didn’t leave you alone than it wouldn’t happen…I’m sorry Su…” Yunho whispered to his friend’s ear.

“*sob…Promise me! You…*hiccup…won’t leave me alone ever again…Promise me you’ll protect me from now on…Protect me from-m those bully…and all bad things and people!” Junsu said innocently and stuck out his pinkie. “Pinkie promised?”

“I promise” Yunho linking his pinkie with Junsu’s and the smaller boy smiled sweetly.

“If you lie to me I won’t be your bestfriend anymore!” Junsu threatened. And Yunho nodded.

“Lets go home! Umma must be waiting for us” Yunho pulled Junsu up and picked his bag.

“Yunnie…I can’t walk…My knees are hurt…” Junsu whined.

“I’ll piggy back you…Hurry up…It's getting late…” Yunho squatted down and let Junsu jump on to his back. “Su…You’re getting fat…You’re so heavy…I wouldn’t be able to piggy back you again if you’re getting heavier…” Yunho tried so hard to piggy back Junsu home.

~END OF FLASHBACK~

It just a small promise, wasn’t it?

So I could break it, couldn’t I?

It had been a month since you and Yoochun started dating. And it had been a week too, since you avoided me.

You know what Su? I couldn’t live without you. I couldn’t concentrate in class when you weren’t complaining and whining bout the teacher and the lesson. I couldn’t eat without your munching noises beside me. I couldn’t do anything without you stayed by my side. It's my life to stay by your side. It's my breath to see you save beside me. But now it's gone. There’s no other reason for me to stay. I had to go Su…

I walked to the school rooftop. I knew there’s rare to people came up here. I could stay by myself. I took out my cellphone and dialed your number.

“Hello? Yunnie-ah whats up?” You answered.

“Su…are you happy now?” I asked.

“Huh? Of course I’m happy, why shouldn’t I? Why you asked this all of sudden?” You were getting confused.

“It's a good thing then…I gotta go Su…Bye…”

“Wait…yah Yunho-ah where are you? Where you’re going to?” You asked before I could hang up the phone.

“I just got to go…bye” I hung up the called.

~END OF YUNHO’S POV~

~JUNSU’S POV~

“Oh gosh…why Yunnie was acting so weird? Was he mad at me?” I asked myself.

“What’s happen Su?” Yoochun asked me.

“Huh? No…nothing…it just Yunho called me and say weird thing…” I replied.

“Weird thing?” Yoochun confused.

“He asked me whether I’m happy or not…” I was getting worry about Yunho. What if something happened to him? “I got to find him…” I ran away from the school’s park to the building.

Yunho-ah where are you? Why are you so weird? I looked around the main entrance and all the classes but he wasn’t there. Yunnie-ah I felt something terribly wrong…What happen to you huh?

I walked upstairs to the rooftop. When I opened the exit door, I saw Yunho sitting on the safety fence.

“YAH! YUNHO-AH WHAT ARE YOU DOING?” I screamed and ran closer.

“STOP SU! OR I’LL JUMP…” He threatened.

“Yunnie-ah what are you doing?” I couldn’t believe that he committed suicide.

“Just leave me alone Su…Yoochun must be searching you now…” He said and I couldn’t stop the tears that now streaming down my face.

“Yunn-nie why you do this to…*sob…me?” I asked.

“You pushed me to do this…” He said softly.

“How-w come you…*sob…you said that? I never did some…*sob…something wrong to you, didn’t I?” I was so confused because of what he just said.

“You did Su…You realized or not…You did…” He said and looked down.

“Yunnie-ah…how come you think to kill yourself? You promised me to always stay by my side and…*sob…and protect me…Why you do this?” I said as I breaking down all of sudden to the cold floor.

“Yu are the one who made me like this Su…” He whispered loud enough for me to hear. I heard slight of shaking in his voice. “I’m sorry Su…I guess this is it…”

“No-no Yunnie-ah don’t leave me…*sob…Who-o gonna stay by my side th-then?” I tried to stand up and walked to him.

“No Su…Don’t walk here…or I’ll jump…You know I never joking…” He was about to jump so I stayed there…”

“Do you hate me Yunho? That’s why you do this to me? You want to get a payback? Revenge?” I said hardly.

“I never hate you Su…I loved you…I loved you so much until it's kill me softly when you’re dating Yoochun…” He whispered and I could see his wet cheeks.

“You…Why Yunho-ah?*sob…why you said that?”

“I love you Su…I always love you…I’m such a coward…*sob…such a coward that never told you what I really felt deep inside…So I think…*sob…since you got Yoochun I can disappear from your live”

“Why killing yourself?”

“But it's killing me…IT'S FUCKING KILLING ME WHEN I SAW YOU AND YOOCHUN HOLDING HANDS…IT BURN ME WITH JEALOUSY TILL I WANT TO GRAB YOUR HANDS AND PUNCH HIM ON THE FACE…I CAN’T STAND IT…I just can’t…” He whispered the last part.

“I…I”

“No Su…You don’t have to say anything…now just leave…”

“And what…*sob…Let you jump? Let the most important person of my life kill himself?” I said in desperation.

“It just me Su…the most important person of your life is Yoochun…” He said sadly.

“Who told you that? Who told you that Yoochun is the most important one huh? I never told you who is it…Then how come you said that?” I said angrily. I hate it when he always made a decision by himself and became so egoist by not let people to tell him the truth.

“I know Su…I can see it…you always look happy when you’re with him…” He replied.

“Then how about when I was with you? I always happy…I always am until I can have a sweet dream just by thinking about you…You always make me laugh, smile…But till now I guess you’ve never know that you’re also the one who can make me cry just because you didn’t call me to say goodnight one day…It's so fucking unbelievable huh? I could cry just because I thought you forgot about me…” my tears started brimming in my eyes again.

“You’re lying…” He whispered. It hurt me. I confessed my feeling and he said it was all just lie?

“FINE! JUMP…JUMP DOWN FOR ALL I CARE…I HATE YOU…I DON’T NEED YOU ANYMORE…IT WILL JUST HURT ME AGAIN AND AGAIN WHEN YOU CAN’T BELIEVE IT…I just want to say I love you Yunho…I always do…It's your decision either you believe it or not…I never told you because I thought you won’t feel the same way as me…I thought you just love me as your little brother…” I said as I wiped away my tears.

“You only said that because you don’t want me to jump…” He shook his head.

“FINE! JUMP! GO AHEAD I WON’T HOLD YO BACK ANYMORE! YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU DON’T LOVE ME!” I said and turned around.

“I LOVE YOU KIM JUNSU…WITH ALL MY LIFE! WHY YOU SAY THAT I DON’T LOVE YOU?” Yunho looked over his shoulder to look at me.

“No…you don’t love me…not love me enough…because you don’t even believe what I said…” Tears kept flowing down on my cheeks. “Why? Why it's hard for me to make you believe I do love you…I was scared if I told you I love you straight away you will leave me…break our friendship…that’s why I chose Yoochun…I prefer to suffering by myself than must break our friendship Yunho-ah…And what I get now? You’re the one who tried to break our friendship…even break your promise to me…” Yunho kept silent. “Okay if you can’t accept my reason…then how about your umma? He must be so sad because her only son committed suicide…don’t you think bout her?” I know Yunho love his mother a lot. That’s why I said this t him.

“I don’t know what to do Su…I thought you already forget about me because of Yoochun…I’m so sorry…now stop crying okay? I won’t jump…” Yunho smiled as he turned around. But he tripped and lost his balance. He went out of my sight as I heard a lot of people screaming.

“YUNHOOOOOO!!!NOOOOOOO!!!” I fell on my knees and cried as hard as I could. It's all because of me…Yunho died…I stuck in my mind until I heard somebody ran from behind me.

“Yah Junsu-ah…Don’t you hear Yunho’s screaming for help!” Yoochun shouted as he tried to pull Yunho. Yunho just tripped and fell down but he caught the fence bar right in time. As I saw he pulled himself up and jump over to the safety floor, I rushed over to him and hugged him tight.

“I thought you were death…I thought you fell down…You scared me…” I cried on his chest.

“Shhh…I’m sorry Su…Don’t cry okay? I’m here…Sorry for making you worry…shhh babe sorry…don’t cry anymore…look you’re eyes it's all red now…” Yunho hugged me back and stroke my hair gently.

“Promise me you won’t do that ever again! You scared me!” I looked up at him with my puppy eyes.

“I promise…” He smiled brightly at me. He looked at Yoochun who was walking away. “Thanks Chun…I owe you one…I dunno what I should do to pay it…”

“Take care of him…Don’t make me cry or even sad ever again…” Yoochun said as he walked away. Never looked back.

“I guess I just broke someone heart…” Yunho whispered.

“Yes, my heart…” I answered.

“Then what I should do to fix it?” He grabbed my chin forced me to look at him.

“I want you to stay by my side forever and ever…” I said as he leaned down for a kiss.

“I’ll do it…I definitely will do it….” He said before our lips touched.

“Saranghae Yunnie-ah…”

“Na do saranghae…yongwonhi…”

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BECAUSE...

2008-11-15T02:12:14Z

“Yunnie-ah...Where are you going? Can I go with you?” Junsu pouted cutely as he walked Yunho to the front door.

“You can’t Su-ah...I’m sorry...But you know I go by myself. Jaejoong, Yoochun, and Minnie will stay with you...And it just takes three days...” Yunho replied.

“But Yunnie...” Junsu whined.

“No buts okay? I promised to call you every hour, to make sure I’ll be okay. I will bring you a lot of present when I get back okay?” Yunho tried to make his boyfriend understand.

“You promise! If you forget we’re through okay?” Junsu threatened

“Promise!” Yunho pulled Junsu into a big teddy bear hug.

“Yakusoku?” Junsu said as he inhaled his Yunnie’s scent on Yunho’s crook.

“Yakusoku...I love you...” Yunho said, tightening his hug to emphasis his words.

“Nee Yunnie...How I go to sleep now? You know I can’t sleep without your teddy bear hug and goodnight kiss...” Junsu pulled away from Yunho and pouted even more.

“You got Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie right? You can hug him and pretend that he’s me...” Yunho ruffled Junsu’s hair as he mentioned about Junsu’s holy-Mary-big teddy bear. Yunho bought it for him because one day when he went to do some shooting with Yoochun and got to stay at the hotel, Jae called him and said Junsu couldn’t sleep because he can’t hug Yunho and when he got back from his work to the apartment the next day he found his boyfriend looks like a panda with all black circle around his eyes. Then that afternoon, even though he was exhausted till death Yunho went to a mall and buy a custom-holy-Mary-big-teddy bear. It has double size of his body with the same height with him. So when Junsu hug it, it looks like Junsu’s hugging a single sized bed.

“But Yunnie...When I hug Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie at night, the next morning I will find myself in your arms. And he will be at the corner of the bedroom...” Yup that’s true. When Yunho got to leave for a night Junsu usually hugs Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie until he fell asleep. And when Yunho got back home at midnight or early in the morning, he will remove the teddy bear from Junsu’s arm and put it on the corner of the room then pulled Junsu close to him and drifted to sleep.

“Su...Please don’t make it hard for me...You can hug Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie or you can asked Changmin to sleep with you so you can hug him. He’s as tall as I am right, well yeah he’s taller.” Yunho replied.

“Yunnie...Changmin is skinnier than you...and he doesn’t have a teddy bear hug...” Junsu whined, Yunho just chuckled at his overly-cute boyfriend. “And do you want to find me all black and blue when you get back?” Junsu said. Changmin has a VERY bad sleeping habit. He used to talk and move a lot when he’s sleeping. Move means pulling, kicking, punching, and walking sometimes.

“Hahahaha...Then you have no choice but hug Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie...I got to go now...or I’ll be late...See you in three days okay? I love you and I’ll gonna miss you a lot...” Yunho said then kissed Junsu passionately on the lips.

“I love you too...Call me...” Junsu pulled away from the kiss. “ Go now before I change my mind and handcuffed you to the bed and locked our bedroom door so that you can’t go anywhere...” Junsu threatened and Yunho laughed.

“I go...Bye...” Yunho said as he picked his belongings.

“Be careful nae Yunnie?...Bye...” Junsu waved at Yunho.

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2 hours later...

“Hyung, do you think Yunnie’s already arrived?” Junsu asked Jaejoong who was busy to prepare lunch for others member.

“Why don’t you just call him?” Jaejoong answered simply.

“But...Maybe he’s still on the way and probably he’s sleeping because...you know...Yunnie sleep a lot when we’re on the move to some place...” Junsu replied.

“Then don’t call him...” Jaejoong was still busy cutting some veggies.

“But...”

“SuSu...If you think you should call him, call him. But if you think it’s not a good time to call him yet, don’t call...Do you understand?” Jaejoong suggested calmly, but inside he got annoyed by the way his cute little dongsaeng bubbling uncontrollable about something.

“Okay hyung...Thanks...” Junsu jumped up and hugged Jaejoong.

“You’re welcome Cutie...Now let me finish cooking okay?” Jaejoong said after pinching Junsu’s chubby cheeks.

“Aww hyung it’s hurt...I’ll tell Yunnie if my cheeks become bruise...” Junsu pouted.

“It’s because you’re toooo cute...I believe Yunho will do the same...” Jaejoong replied and Junsu chuckled.

“Where’s Yoochun-hyung and Minnie?” Junsu asked.

“Yoochun’s in music room and Minnie...I don’t know...Maybe he’s in his room, playing with his laptop.” Jae answered.

“Okay...I’ll go to Minnie’s then...See ya hyung!” Junsu said then stormed out the kitchen heading to Minnie’s room.

“Minnie...Minnie may I come in?” Junsu knocked on the door noisily.

“Not so loud hyung!” Changmin said as he opened the door.

“What are you doing? Watching porn again? Or do something Jae-umma forbids?” Junsu said as he looked around Minnie’s messy room.

“HYUNG! Can you shut up? I’m just chatting with Bummie and others...” Changmin whined.

“Ohh...I thought you were...Never mind...Hahaha...” Junsu chuckled.

“You’re a weirdo you know!” Changmin shook his head.

“But I’m the CUTEST member of the group, remember?!” Junsu said, jump up and down, laughing happily.

“Don’t laugh too much...It’s not good...You’ll cry a lot later...” Changmin said as he got his attention back to the laptop screen.

“What do you mean?” Junsu stopped laughing and looked totally different from what he was a couple seconds ago.

“Nothing...People said don’t laugh too much, or you’ll cry a lot later...” Changmin said as he typing. “I’m confused...How come you become sooooo happy when one hour ago you were about to cry when Yunho leaves, and stubbornly said that you’ll go after him...” Changmin chuckled.

“Minnie...Yunnie said that cry’s not good for me...He don’t want to see me crying...” Junsu explained.

“But you are a crying baby you know?” Changmin smirked.

“But you ARE the Baby Dong Bang...You’re Jae-umma little baby...” Junsu stuck his tongue at Changmin.

“Hyung!” Changmin whined and pulled a pillow near him and threw it to Junsu. But Junsu already ran out the room.

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After dinner...

“Why Yunnie hasn’t called me yet? He promised to call me every hour...” Junsu pouted.

“Maybe he’s busy Su...” Yoochun answered as he saw his dongsaeng pouted.

“Yup...Maybe he is...” Junsu tried to throwing away all his negative thinking. “Or...should I call him? Maybe he forgets...”

“Why don’t you?” Yoochun replied with a smile. Junsu picked his cellphone and dialed Yunho’s number. But no answered, just the voice mailbox.

“No answer...Voice mailbox...Maybe he’s busy...” Junsu said but his heart felt uneasy about it.

“He’ll call you after he’s finish...” Yoochun assured.

“Hmm...” Junsu nodded. “I’ll go to my room then, night hyung” Junsu walked away.

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In the room...

Junsu called Yunho again, but the voice mailbox answered him.

“Yunho-ah...Why you are not calling me? Call me back kay?” Junsu said.

30 minutes later...

Junsu was sitting on his bed and hugging Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie. He’s still waiting for Yunho’s call. “Yunnie-ah call me back please...I can’t sleep before you talk to me...” Junsu whispered.

15 minutes later...

“Yunnie-ah are you still busy? It’s okay if you’re busy...When you’re finished call me okay? Miss you already...” Junsu record his second voice mailbox.

“Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie...Is Yunnie really really that busy? Why he hasn’t call me yet?” Junsu asked his teddy. “I missed him already...Can at least he call me to say that he’s fine and he loves me? You know that I must listen his voice before I go to sleep...”

1 and a half hour later...

“Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie...Yunnie’s fine right? Nothing bad happened right? Why do I get a bad feeling about it?” Junsu kept talking to his teddy. He didn’t feel sleepy at all, even though he already yawned for a hundred times that night.

“Yunnie’s fine...He just busy...” Junsu smiled to Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie. “He’ll call me later...” He convinced himself.

The midnight...

“He’s still not calling me...It’s already midnight...Maybe he’s tired and go to sleep...” Junsu was lying on his bed hugging Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie and holding his cellphone tight.

“Junsu-ah...Are you sleeping?” Jaejoong knocked the door.

“Come in hyung...I can’t sleep...” Junsu sat up and saw Jaejoong entered the room.

“Su-ah...Go to sleep...You’ll sick if you’re not take a rest...” Jaejoong said as he stroked Junsu’s hair gently.

“I can’t hyung...Yunnie hasn’t call me yet...You know that I can’t sleep without hearing his voice right?” Jaejoong just smiled.

“I know SuSu, I know...But Yunho’s busy and maybe he’s sleeping right now...Why don’t you just sleep too? You must be tired waiting right?” Jaejoong said.

“But hyung...I just want to hear him say goodnight...” Junsu looked at Jaejoong with his teary eyes.

“Shhh don’t cry Su-ah...” Jaejoong said and pulled out his cellphone. “Here, listen to this...” Jaejoong said.

“SuSu...Go to sleep...I don’t want to see you look like a panda ever again...Be a nice lover and go to sleep now, kay babe? I love you...And I miss you...Muach” Yunho’s voice could be listened clearly.

“Yunho called you but he didn’t pick my call?” Junsu whispered.

“He record it by himself yesterday Su...He already knows that you’ll be like this...He was afraid that he would be too busy and don’t have time to say goodnight to you, so he record it...” Jaejoong said as he rubbed Junsu’s tears. “He loves you so much so that he would do anything for you, see? Now listen to him kay? Sleep well Su” Jae made Junsu lay down and tucked his blanket.

“Night hyung...And thanks...Love you...” Junsu said.

“Love you too...Night” Jaejoong then walked out the room.

“Nee Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie could you tell me that Yunnie is fine and he’ll gonna call me tomorrow?” Junsu asked as he yawned and closed his eyes, fell into a deep slumber.

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Next morning...

“Hyung, have you slept well last night?” Changmin asked Junsu as Junsu walked into the kitchen.

“I guess so...” Junsu answered as he rubbed his eyes.

“You look like a panda...” Changmin chuckled as he munched on his chocolate waffle Jae baked.

“He slept past midnight last night...that’s why he got that panda’s eyes” Jae explained.

“Ohh...” Changmin commented.

“Hyung has Yunnie called you?” Junsu asked.

“Nope, he hasn’t...” Jae replied.

“Oh...Okay...” Junsu said.

“Su-ah...Just wait kay? Maybe he’ll call you later...” Jae said.

“Nah...It’s okay hyung...I guess he really is busy...” Junsu forced himself to smile.

“Now get some breakfast first okay?” Jae offered and Junsu nodded.

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Junsu was sitting on a bench at the balcony starring at the clear blue sky while hugging his Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie. He really missed Yunho’s hug a lot. That’s why, Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie kept him accompany.

“Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie, Yunnie still hasn’t called me yet...Should I mad at him?” Junsu felt his eyes became teary. “I guess I should, He broke his promise, didn’t he?”

“Junsu-ah...The manager just called...He said he couldn’t contact Yunho since he got there...” Yoochun said softly.

“Yo-ou got to be kidding me aite hyung?” Junsu felt chills and worries washed over his mind.

“No...I guess he just out of service...That’s why we couldn’t contact him...” Yoochun reassured his dongsaeng.

“Nothing happened to Yunnie...Nothing happened to Yunnie...” Junsu told himself, shook his head uncontrollably.

“Junsu...Junsu nothing’s happened to Yunho...Calm down okay?” Yoochun hugged Junsu who was still trembling.

“He’s okay, right hyung?” Junsu sobbed on Yoochun’s shoulder.

“He’s okay, he’s gonna be okay and return home safely...” Yoochun patted Junsu’s back gently.

“Thanks hyung...” Junsu pulled away from Yoochun’s hug.

“You really do miss Yunho’s hug don’t you?” Yoochun ruffled Junsu’s hair and Junsu just smiled at him. “If you need anything, I’ll be in the music room kay?” Yoochun left Junsu alone.

“Yunnie-ah...can’t you at least call me to said that you’re fine?” Junsu looked back at the sky with his teary eyes.

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Junsu still hugged Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie tight and held his cellphone while sitting beside the apartment’s phone, waiting for any call from anybody who would tell that his Yunnie was fine. For the hundred times he tried to call Yunho’s cellphone but no answer he got. He leaves at least 15 voice mailboxes for Yunho but still no answer for his worried ness.

“Yunho-ah...Why you are not calling me? Call me back kay?”

“Yunnie-ah are you still busy? It’s okay if you’re busy...When you’re finished call me okay? Miss you already...”

“Yunnie-ah... Mr. Cutie-Teddy-Yunnie doesn’t help at all this time...I dunno why but I got a bad feeling about your leaving...Call me ASAP kay? I just want to make sure that you’re fine and save...Love you”

“Yunho-ah I can’t sleep without hearing your voice...Could you at least call me? Just say goodnight...Please...”

“Yunnie-ah, it’s been 2 days and you haven’t called me yet...how have you been? Are you really that busy? Can’t you call me just once?”

“Yunnie, I’ll mad at you if you don’t call me right away...called me as soon as possible kay?”

“Yunho-ah...Yoochun-hyung told me that manager-hyung couldn’t contact you at all...You’re fine right? Call me back kay Babe?”

“Yunho...You’re scared me to death if you don’t call me right now...Where are you? What are you doing? Call me back please...I really worry bout you...”

“YUNNIE CALLED ME RIGHT NOW OR WE’RE THROUGH!”

“YAH! JUNG YUNHO, COULD YOU AT LEAST ANSWER MY CALL? FINE! IF YOU’RE NOT CALL ME RIGHT AWAY, WE’RE THROUGH!!!”

“YAH! YUNHO, DO YOU REALLY REALLY WANT ME TO ANGRY AT YOU? DO YOU REALLY WANT US TO BREAK UP?”

“JUNG U~KNOW YUNHO WE’RE THROUGH! DON’T YOU SWEET-TALK ME EVER AGAIN! I HATE YOU!”

“Yunnie-ah...*sob...I’m just-t joking*sob...Call me kay Babe?* I’m wo-worried till death...I-I just want to-o make*sob...make sure that-t you’re alright...Call me please...*sob even more...”

“Yunnie*sob-ah...Can’t you at least answer my phone?*sob...I’m really really worry now...Please*sob...Please-e call me...Tell me where you-u*sob...you are...Don’t make me*sob...make me worry nae Yunnie?”

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“Hyung...stop crying will you? Look! Your eyes are all red and puffy...Yunho-hyung will think that I and Yoochun-hyunh bully you again” Changmin whined.

“Shhh Minnie! It’s not a right time to joking around okay!” Jaejoong warned him.

“Su...You haven’t eaten at all since breakfast...Aren’t you hungry?” Yoochun asked in concern.

“No hyung...I’m not hungry...” Junsu shook his head.

“Su it’s not good for your health...Eat something kay? What do you want to eat? I’ll cook it for you” Jaejoong offered.

“Hyung please...Don’t scared me like that...You’re a food maniac like me...Since when did you reject Jae-umma cooks” Changmin said.

“Minnie...One more time I warned you...It’s not a right time to joking around” Jae said in a scary tone.

“Umma...I’m worry about Junsu-hyung...” Changmin said as he tucked on Jae’s sleeve.

“Su-ah...You don’t want Yunho worries about you right?” Yoochun said as he patted Junsu’s shoulder.

“I’m the one who worried about him hyung!” Junsu snapped. “He broke his promise to call me every hour...Every damn hour I’m waiting for his call but what? He didn’t call me at all...I don’t even know where he is...Why he can’t answer my calls...What is he doing right now...I’m worry Hyung...Most of all I’M SCARED THAT SOMETHING HAPPENED AT HIM!” Junsu screamed and crying uncontrollably.

“Shhh...Yunho’s fine Su...Nothing is happened to him...” Jae tried to calm Junsu down.

“Hyung*sob...Don’t screaming like that*sob...I’m scared...” Changmin started to cry too.

“Shh...Minnie*sob...why are you crying?*sob...I’m sorry kay? I’m sorry for screaming like that...” Junsu apologized.

“Now, both of you stop crying! Everything is FINE...Yunho’s FINE...nothing to worried about kay?” Yoochun said. And they all just nodded.

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Later that night...

“Yunnie-ah...You’ll come home tomorrow right? You’ll definitely come back home right?*sob...Yunnie I’m tired of waiting and crying...Please just come home...I don’t care if you didn’t call me at all...If you come home, that’s all matter...I’ll sleep early tonight so that I would see you tomorrow morning kay? I missed you and I love you so much...” Junsu record his last voice mailbox for Yunho. He didn’t care if Yunho reads it or not.

“God, please make Yunnie come home safe...I won’t ask anything else, just make him come back to me safely...” Junsu prayed to God before he closed his eyes for sleep.

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Junsu stirred from his deep slumber as he felt some warm feeling wrapped around him.

“Now, look at my sleeping beauty...Is the sleeping beauty waiting for his prince charming to kiss him and wake him up?” Yunho said as he pulled Junsu closer to his warm body.

“*sob...You lied to me...” Junsu said as he hit Yunho’s chest.

“I’m sorry...I’ve listened everything...Jae,Yoochun, and Minnie told me...I’m sorry kay?” Yunho said then pecked on Junsu’s forehead.

“I*sob...I MAD AT YOU...WE’RE THROUGH...” Junsu said as he pulled away from Yunho’s embrace.

“SuSu-ah...I’m sooooo sorry kay? I bought a LOT of presents for you...Don’t mad at me again kay?” Yunho’s grabbed Junsu wrist and pulled him back down.

“Why you didn’t call me? I was worried to death you know...” Junsu said as he slipped his arms around Yunho’s waist and buried his face on Yunho’s chest.

“That’s because...ehm”

“Because?” Junsu pulled away and looked at Yunho in the eyes.

“Be-because...I forgot to bring my cellphone...I put in my sport bag...And-d you know-w I always put my phone in silent mode...” Yunho whispered and looked down, didn’t dare to look at Junsu.

“You...YOU!!! You made me cry and worry about you...just-t...JUST BECAUSE YOU LEFT YOUR GODDAMN CELLPHONE?!” Junsu jumped up and screamed on top of his lungs.

“I-I really forgot SuSu...I’m sorry...” Yunho pleaded and gave Junsu his puppy eyes.

“Oh no Jung Yunho! Don’t you dare to give me that look! WE’RE THROUGH AND YOU’RE DEFINITELY GOING TO DIE JUNG YUNHO!!!” Before Junsu finished his words, Yunho already run for his live out of his shared bedroom. “JUNG YUNHO DON’T YOU DARE TO RUN AWAY FROM ME!!! YOU GOT TO PAY FOR ALL OF THIS!!!” Junsu chased Yunho.

“JAE, YOOCHUN, MINNIE!!! HELP ME!!! PLEASE!!! ANYBODY!!! MAYDAY, MAYDAY!!!”

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Hug, Hotmilk, and Lullaby...

2008-10-20T04:22:25Z

Sorry for any grammar mistakes...

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It was in a middle of the night, another uncomfortable night for Junsu. In his pregnancy, he always woke almost every middle of the night, either needed something or the baby in his bulging tummy need some comfortable position.

He woke up and started struggle in his bedside. He tried many position to comfort himself.

“Hmm...Su-ah...What’s wrong babe?” His husband mumbled sleepily.

“Yunho-yah...I can’t sleep...My tummy doesn’t feel well...” Junsu whined cutely.

“Do you need something?” Yunho asked as he rose up from his lay position. He looked at his beautiful wife.

“Nee...Yunnie...I don’t know...” Junsu said then he sat up.

“You need some hotmilk...It’ll help you to relax...” Yunho said as he stroked Junsu’s hair lovingly.

“Ehmm...” Junsu nodded and Yunho smiled at his adorable wifey.

“Wait here, kay? It’s cold tonight...I don’t want you to catch a cold...” Yunho said as he stood up from the bed then walked out. But Junsu didn’t do as he was told, He walked behind Yunho.

“Yunnie...my tummy feels weird...” Junsu said as he sat on the kitchen counter.

“Why are you here? I told you to stay right?” Yunho said as he walked to the refrigerator then grabbed the milk carton. “You’d catch a cold Su-ah...” Yunho said.

“But Yunnie I just want to be with you~...” Junsu pouted, Yunho just chuckled.

“Okay...waited here...I’ll take your robe...” Yunho said then walked to their shared bedroom. When he came back, he saw Junsu poured some milk to 2 glasses and put them in the microwave.

“Babe...just sit here...” Yunho pulled Junsu away from the microwave then wore him the robe and sat him on the kitchen counter.

“Yunnie...I’m fine...” Junsu pouted.

“Now tell me...Why your stomach doesn’t feel well?” Yunho asked as he rubbed his wifey bulging tummy over the PJ.

“I don’t know...” Junsu answered softly.

“You didn’t eat something bad again, did you?” Yunho asked again.

“Nope...I just eat what Jae-umma cooked...” Junsu said thoughtfully.

Bing, the microwave finished warming up the milk. Yunho grabbed the cooking glove then took out the glasses. He brought it to the kitchen counter.

“Wait till it cooling down a little bit...” Yunho told Junsu.

“Yun, Is the baby okay? I’m afraid...” Junsu said as he looked down at his rounded tummy and rubbed it.

“Where was I? Ah, you sure you didn’t eat anything else?” Yunho asked.

“Umm...Are chips and-d coke bad?” Junsu asked doubtfully.

“Su-ah...” Yunho said in a warning tone.

“Min and I eat some after lunch...” Junsu replied. He knew Yunho would NEVER EVER mad at him. That’s why it made him felt guiltier. “I’m sorry...” Junsu whispered put his head low.

“There’s nothing to sorry about Su-ah...” Yunho said gently as he put his hand on Junsu’s little face and made him look at Yunho. “You should take a good care of yourself and the baby, Babe. You shouldn’t eat junk food anymore. If you’re sick, the baby could be in a dangerous condition...You don’t want it to happen, do you?” Yunho said gently as he rubbed Junsu’s flawless cheek.

“I don’t know, Yun...I can’t stop eating, either it was junk food or healthy one...Look, now I’m soooo fat...I look like a grizzly bear...” Junsu pulled away from Yunho’s embrace. “I don’t look good anymore...I’m fat...” Junsu said.

“It’s normal for a pregnant person Su...” Yunho said as he hugged Junsu again. “You maybe hate your condition now...but remember, you’re the most beautiful, wonderful person I’ve ever met!” He pulled Junsu even closer. “And you’re my miracle...You and this baby are miracles for me...” Yunho said before he pulled away a little bit then leaned to kiss Junsu on the lips. “You’re always be the owner of my heart Su...You’re still my most beautiful Junsu-Dolphin...” Yunho whispered. Junsu just giggled at his hubby romantic words. It’s been 8 months since the doctor told him that he was pregnant. He and Yunho didn’t believe it at first. But Yunho told him that every-single-thing is possible. Yunho kept saying that he’s a miracle.

Once Yunho said to Junsu, “Su-ah...You know that I already have the one I really need in my life, the love of my life, YOU...but there’s still something I want...I want a family, a happy family...” And that day Yunho proposed him. 2 weeks later they married in a small church. They thought they couldn’t be happier. But faith said the other one. Exactly one month later, Junsu went to the hospital because he didn’t feel well and threw up every morning for a week. The doctor said that Junsu’s pregnant. The news about Junsu’s pregnancy was another miracle, another miracle alongside Junsu. He was blessed. His life was completed by those miracles.

“I’m sorry, Yunnie” Junsu whispered with a little sob. His eyes were teary.

“Su, Babe...Don’t...You didn’t do anything...” Yunho pulled him into a big teddy bear hug.

“I’m not being a good wife and mommy...Look, I always complaining about something that looks wrong in my eyes...I couldn’t even take care of myself...Then what about the baby? I’m afraid that I would hurt the baby...I’m scared, Yunnie-ah...” Junsu was sobbing uncontrollably right then. But there was Yunho, who kept calming him down.

“Junsu-ah, Babe...It’s okay...Everything is gonna be okay...I’m here, aren’t I?” Yunho whispered to the distraught man.

“Yunho-yah...Do you know anything about the delivery?” Yunho shook his head, how in the world he would know? “I read many books about it...They told, the delivery is like a life and death battle for the mommy...Umma told me that, the mommy could die...” Junsu whispered the last part.

“Shhhs...There’s nothing to worry about Susu...I’ll be there, right beside you at the delivery room...I’ll stay by your side...Now don’t think about the bad things, kay?” Yunho was told by the doctor that Junsu might become stress. The doctor said it’s because his hormones became not stable, it caused the mood swing. The pressures became harder for Junsu since it was his first time and it was VERY-VERY rare for men to get pregnant.

“Yunnie...I’m scared...What if something happen?” Junsu said as he tightened the hug.

“Nothing, I repeat, NOTHING will happen to you...I’ll NEVER EVER let something happen to you Susu...” Yunho emphasized his words because he really meant it. He grabbed a glass of hotmilk and handed it to Junsu. “Now drink it...It will help you to relax and then we go to sleep, kay?” Junsu drank the milk slowly. After he finished he handed the empty glass to Yunho. “Feel any better?” Yunho asked.

“Yeah...” Junsu nodded and smiled. “Now you must drink yours...” Junsu said as he gave Yunho another glass of milk. Yunho just chuckled then drank. “Yay! Finished...Now lets go back to our room, Yunnie... I guess the baby needs some sleep...” Junsu sais as he rubbed his stomach. Yunho chuckled at his wife overly cute act. He grabbed Junsu then picked him up. He carried Junsu to the shared-bedroom bridal style. He tucked Junsu in the warm blanket and went to lie down beside Junsu.

“Yunnie...Yunnie...You want a baby girl or boy?” Junsu said excitedly as he was being pulled to Yunho’s embrace.

“Ehmmm, a baby boy...He’ll take my handsome figure and I’ll teach him some dance movements and material arts...” Yunho said proudly but Junsu pouted. “Wae?” Yunho said as he saw his pouting lover.

“Why he should take your handsome figure? Do you mean that I’m not handsome enough?” Junsu said and pouted even more.

“That’s not what I mean...I think it’ll be great if it’s a baby girl, she will take you very cute figure...well since I don’t have a cute chubby face like you...” Yunho said then pinched Junsu’s cheek lightly.

“Ahh~ I got it...” Junsu chuckled then snuggled closer to his hubby nice and warm body. “Yunnie-ah...Sing for me please? The baby and I want to hear you singing...” Junsu said as he looked up at Yunho’s face.

“Sing? What song?” Yunho asked.

“You Only Love...” Junsu answered.

“Okay...” Yunho said, smiled at Junsu and then started to sing.

“You only love pogihal su eomneun dan hanaui naui sarangiyeo
You only love seolmyeonghal suga eomneun neon ibyeoreul malhajyo
seulpeum soge jamsi himdeun geojyo eotteon maldo deureul sun eomnayo...” Yunho sang and Junsu closed his eyes and relax even more.

“You only love...”

“My only love...” Junsu sang too. Yunho smiled as Junsu started to sing with him but he didn’t stop singing.

“I can’t never give up...”

“I can’t never know...”

“Heeojimi geudae seontaegingayo”

“You only love naui jeonbuingeoryo. You only love my life...” Yunho and Junsu sang together the last part of the refrain. Yunho stopped singing and closed his eyes, inhaled the smell of Junsu’s hair.

“Saranghae Yunnie-ah...Yongwonhi...” Junsu said before he drifted to his deep slumber.

“Na do saranghae...I love you and our child...” Yunho replied before he kissed Junsu’s forehead. He and Junsu smiled in their dream.

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C.H.O.C.O.L.A.T.E [RATED]

2008-10-20T03:57:58Z

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“Morning Yunnie…” Junsu said as he stirred when Yunho gently stroking his hair then he snuggled closer to his lover’s warm body.

“Morning Susu!” Yunho replied then kissed Junsu’s forehead. “Su…Come on wake up babe…Why you greeted me if you are about to sleep again?” Yunho tried to push Junsu away and made the younger boy sit up but all Junsu do was pouting and hugged Yunho more tightly.

“Yunnie~I’m still sleepy…Pwease~Let me sleep for another 5 minutes ne?” Junsu asked cutely and Yunho just chuckled.

“Susu…Don’t we have to go to the supermarket? We ran out food babe…” Yunho explained and kept trying to wake Junsu up.

“Hmm…Yunnie-ah I’m tired…and it's all because of you!” Junsu said. Then Yunho laughed then realized that both of them still naked after their “little activity” last night.

“Hahaha…Okay-okay that could be a strong reason…but not today…Come on Su! Wake up!” Yunho spooned Junsu on to his arm until the smaller man was on his lap and faced him. But all Junsu do was laid his head on Yunho’s shoulder and kissed Yunho’s neck.

“Yunnie~you smell good even though you haven’t take a shower…” Junsu said then giggled.

“I would smell a lot better if I take my bath…Now let go of me kay? Then we’ll go to the supermarket…” Yunho said but Junsu shook his head stubbornly. “If you wake up then take a shower…hmm today I would make chocolate for you, how about it?” Yunho offered. Junsu quickly sat up straight and looked at Yunho.

“Really Yun?” Junsu made sure and Yunho nodded. “Yay~!!! Okay now lets take a shower then go to the supermarket!” Junsu said cheerfully, he rolled off the bed and ran to the bathroom in the glory of his stark nakedness. Yunho eyes followed him as he gave a nice back view of his ass when he entered the bathroom.

~@ the supermarket~

“Yunnie~I want a lot of chocolate~” Junsu asked cuteeeely to his lover.

“I know Su…” Yunho ruffled Junsu haired and smiled. “Now go get the chocolate bar…I’ll wait at the cashier okay?” Junsu nodded and walked away.

Then a couple of minutes later Junsu walked to the cashier with a LOT of chocolate bars on his hands. He smiled at Yunho sweetly while Yunho shook his head in disagreement.

“Susu…Isn’t that TOO much?” Yunho asked his lover.

“Hehehe…but I want a LOT of chocolate Yunnie! And you HAVE promised me…remember?” Junsu giggled as he put all the chocolate bars on the trolley. Yunho couldn’t say anything else now. He just smiled at Junsu when his lover linking their arms together.

“Okay then lets pay it…” Yunho said.

~Back @ their house~

Junsu ran to the kitchen with 2 paper bags full of vegetables and all the chocolate bars. “Come on Yunnie hurry up! We don’t have all day to make the chocolate right?” Junsu called his lover cutely. Yunho came to the kitchen and ruffled Junsu’s hair

“Why have I got a VERY CUTE boyfriend? He’s SOOO cute until I couldn’t reject all he wants?” Yunho said and pecked Junsu’s lips. Junsu just chuckled.

“But you very VERY love him aite? And I love you too Yunnie!” Junsu said and pecked on Yunho’s cheek. “Now make me the chocolate okay?” Junsu said and sat on the kitchen counter.

“Okay…wait there!” Yunho then took out some of the chocolate bar.

“Yunnie! I want you to cook ALL the chocolate!” Junsu pouted.

“Su-ah…You don’t want to go to the dentist right? It's enough…I don’t want you to eat all the chocolate, get a toothache, and get fat” Yunho laughed and it made Junsu pouted even more.

“I’m not fat Yunnie!” Junsu whined cutely.

“Okay-okay! You ARE not fat you just have a round bubblebutt!” Yunho said.

“But you LOVE my bubblebutt!” Junsu stuck out his tongue at Yunho. Yunho laughed even more.

“Of course I love your bubblebutt!” Yunho smirked at Junsu.

“Yunnie~” Junsu whined and blushed.

“Hahaha…I better start make the chocolate…” Then Yunho took the big blade in his hand. With a chop, the mountain of chocolate crumbled to the effect of the knife’s sharp blade and Yunho’s forceful impact. The pieces lay scattered around the kitchen counter, differing in sizes but all were suitable to be melted. “Okay…next step melt it…” Yunho said to himself. Junsu jumped from the kitchen counter.

“Need any help?” The smaller boy tip toed to Yunho and wrapped his arms around his lover’s waist.

“Put the pieces in a big bowl…I’ll prepare the stove” Yunho ordered.

The other did as told, quite clumsily at the task that he almost dropped the pieces of chocolates on the ground.

“Careful Su…” Yunho advised, dropping the pieces of chocolates Junsu gave him inside a bowl atop the boiling pot of water. Yunho waited for minutes before the chocolates melted due to the rising heat and was tossing a playful grin at Junsu. “Making chocolates together is fun, don’t you think?” Junsu nodded then Yunho wrapped his hands around Junsu’s neck and lightly kissed his lips. “Can you get me the molds to shape the chocolates?”

“Okie dokie Yunnie!” Junsu said and did what being ordered to him. His hands roamed the cabinet, searching for the molds. He had retrieved the molds, now placing them on the counter of the kitchen, next to the bowl of boiling liquid chocolates. “Then what next?” Junsu asked Yunho who focused his attention to the boiling bowl of chocolaty liquid.

“Oh my, they are done.” The chocolaty liquid, its steam rising above from the melted gooey richness, was poured onto a heart shaped mold by Yunho, gracefully and meticulously so that the liquid fitted the mold to perfection.

“Wow Yunnie they looked delicious!” Junsu clapped his hands.

“Well, we need to wait until the chocolates harden. Then we will be able to eat.” Yunho said.

“Wait?” Junsu pouted. “Now what can we do now?” Junsu asked with a pout of course.

“We can do something fun here!” Yunho smirked and lifted the other up on the kitchen counter.

“Yunnie~” Junsu looked away to hide his blush.

Yunho’s hands were caressing Junsu’s jaw and his fingers went behind his ears. Junsu ran his fingers through Yunho’s messy hair and pulled his face closer.

Their tongues started battling and their lips tried to stick impossibly close. Junsu let out a whimper when he felt Yunho’s index finger trailing its way down to his neck.

It was a tickling sensation and it made Junsu’s lips form into a small smile. Yunho could tell and let another finger trail lower. They let each other’s lips go and Yunho kissed down low to Junsu’s collar bone. Junsu could feel goose bumps rising from his arms and back. The hairs on his neck were standing on end.

“Yu-Yunho…” Junsu whispered in response to Yunho’s feather light kisses and his tongue licking at the sensitive skin. He felt wet against his nape. Yunho then started to suck on Junsu’s neck, leaving red marks.

Yunho’s hands busy to taking off Junsu’s shirt then his. Once Junsu’s shirt has been taken off, he felt teeth brushing across his collar bone and down to his nipples. Yunho pecked at Junsu chest and then he went to suckling those pink nipples. Junsu felt the hot breath and that wet tongue lapping at his breast bone. “Ooo…” Junsu held Yunho closer to him. It felt really good so far.

Yunho was going lower and lower, as he reached the lower abdomen. Yunho’s hands were busy taking off both their pants and his thin fingers kept touching Junsu’s bulge lightly. He moved his fingers towards the rim of the man’s boxers. Yunho pulled down at the clothing that was left on Junsu’s body and slid it out from under him. He threw away the discarded boxers carelessly and looked down.

Yunho’s hand reached the hard length. Junsu gasped at Yunho’s cold touch. There were goose bumps rising over his all ready cold hands and legs. Yunho’s hands had just grabbed a slippery length.

"MMM....uuhhh....aaahhh-nnnnhhhh...Yunho..." Yunho had been doing his best to keep pulling at Junsu’s cock. Junsu’s obscene noises were covered by Yunho’s kiss. Yunho took in the moans and groans, groping at Junsu’s skin and only feeling love between one another...

“Wait for me…” Yunho’s tongue teased over Junsu’s earlobe, breathing his hot breath into it and reaching his other hand over to the chocolaty liquid that had cooled, not hardened nonetheless. “We can’t put these to waste, can we?” There was a gleam in Yunho’s eyes and in the next second, Junsu gasped as the chocolaty liquid was poured over his chest, slathering in a circular pattern by Yunho’s hand. Yunho just kept licking at Junsu’s nipples, feeling his abs, kissing them in a teasing way. “You taste soo good Su-ah…You taste better with the chocolates…I prefer eat this chocolate this way…”

"Y-Yuuunn... Ahhh…. Uhhhhnnnnnnn…It tickles…” Junsu whispered, his eyes closed, so he could feel the sensation of Yunho’s hands working up his balls. He clutched his hand in Yunho’s hair in a fist.

The pre-cum was lubricating Yunho’s right hand as he rubbed it against the sides and tip of Junsu’s cock. "Oooohh....huuuunnnhhh...Y-Y-YUNNIE-AAAAHH-!!!" Junsu’s voice box seemed to have closed as he was shooting out his load.

Yunho felt the wet substance on his hands and let out a sigh. He took his right hand full of the white liquid and licked torturingly slow. ALL the come was wiped off. Not a single drop left.

Their lips crashed onto each other’s, temptation and passion overriding their thoughts of the outside world, losing their souls through the chocolaty kisses. Parting his mouth, Junsu allowed Yunho’s lips to enter so that Yunho’s minty taste that was blended with chocolate bloomed in his taste buds. Lips crashing, tongues swirling, bodies sticking by the thick substance intermingling with sweats, all were forgotten to them.

“Yunnie-ah…*pant…I need you…now” Junsu still hardly catch his breath pleaded.

Without further a do, Yunho separated Junsu’s legs, slinging them above his shoulders. He panted as their bodies thrusted together, “I will take you raw. Can you handle that…?” He felt it necessary to ask in case Junsu wasn’t ready.

“I don’t care…Just hurry! I need you…NOW!” Junsu demanded. Yunho thrusted himself fully into Junsu. “Ahhhh…. Ahhhh… Uhnnnnn….” Junsu let out a sharp cry of pain. He hadn't even prepped. But Junsu thought it was better this way. The feeling was stronger, more pleasurable.

“Hmmm…. Nnnhhhh… You are so tight…Su… It feels so warm…” Yunho went even faster, the abnormal way he pushed in and out, it was unpredictable to Junsu when his prostate was going to be found.

“Ahhhhh… Don’t stop-p… YUNNIE…” Junsu screamed as the tip of the organ hit his prostate, maximizing his pleasure and the jolts of electricity came in volts through his body. He wrapped his arms around Yunho’s shoulder and neck. Fingers were roaming around Yunho’s muscular back and the nails dug into his shoulders. Half moon-shaped marks were made near Yunho’s neck where Junsu had dug in.

Yunho buried in his face into the shoulder of Junsu. Yunho gently sucked on Junsu’s neck, biting using his teeth as he pulled out all the way to ram himself in forcefully. “Uhnnnnnnn…. Oh god… this feels… like heaven…” He could not increase his thrusts any faster as his organ repeatedly pulled out and attacked Junsu’s hollow opening with almighty force.

“Yuunn…I-I’m commming…” Junsu clenched his teeth to stop from screaming louder at the scorching pain of pure pleasure. When Junsu was about to cum Yunho stop thrusting. “WHAT? YUNNIE I WAS SO CLOSE!!! HOW COME YOU?!” Junsu screamed on top his lungs. He WAS so close.

“Not yet Su!” Yunho winked at his lover. Then he pulled Junsu with him into the one of the dinner table chair. Junsu dug his nails into Yunho's shoulder when Yunho picked him up and slammed him back down onto his erection.

“YUNNIE!!!GOSH!!!” Junsu scream due the intense pleasure he felt. Yunho pulled Junsu close and began devouring his lips. Junsu pulled away from the kiss when the pleasure became too much that he thought me might explode. He laid his head on Yunho's shoulder while Yunho kissed and sucked on Junsu's neck and shoulder.

“UUUNNNHHHHH…..aaaah…ah…ahh…” Yunho’s mouth was wide open, he was trying to breath. He grunted in pleasure at the overwhelming tightness and warmth surrounding his member. Yunho placed his hands onto Junsu’s hips and pulled the other up just to slam it back down hard so that his member went in deeper. Yunho snaked his hand between their sweating bodies to Junsu's neglected member.

“AH unnh...hhunnhh...MORE!!! HARDER YUNHO!!! HARDER...” Junsu was tiring out. But this was for his Yunho, just for him. “AAAAAAHHHH!!!” Junsu jerked upwards and threw his head back, Yunho had now found Mr. Prostate again, and Junsu was in pure ecstasy.

Yunho was still going. He was perspiring like crazy and Junsu was still catching his breath, he didn’t know how much longer Yunho could go on like this. Junsu was going to orgasm if Yunho kept this up. He went faster and harder. It was a sensory overload.

Junsu was ready to gain freedom. “YUNNIE!!!AHHHH!!!” He was emptying, right onto Yunho’s hand. It burst out as Yunho did the same inside Junsu.

“SUUUUU!!!ARGHHH!” Then they both rested their bodies against each other despite the stickiness of chocolates and their sweats. Junsu did nothing but allow Yunho to embrace him as time passed slowly around them, letting their hearts and breathing return to normal.

“You…Aren’t you such a very…naughty hubby?” Junsu said breathlessly as he looked at Yunho in the eyes.

“But you love that side of me don’t you?” Yunho pulled Junsu close and then they shared a deep passionate kissed. After a couple of minutes they broke the kiss to catch their breaths.

“Hell yeah I love you Yunnie!” Junsu pecked on Yunho’s lips. Looking around, their eyes met the messy kitchen counter and floor that leaked of milky fluids from their intense love making. The chocolate hearts had hardened already as Yunho beamed at them.

“Look Su…The chocolate hearts are done, see?” Junsu looked over his shoulder and he was so exciting and when he was about to pulled away from Yunho…

“AHHH…Yunnie…It's hurt!!!” He cried out. Tears slipped out his beautiful eyes.

“I’m sorry Su…” Yunho wiped Junsu tears away and kissed his cheek lightly. “I’ll carry you to the bedroom kay?” Yunho then pulled Junsu with him and pulled Junsu legs around his waist.

“Ahhh…” Junsu gasped as Yunho’s member moved deeper in to him. “Yunnie!!! I’m sore already!!!” Junsu whined.

“Ohh sorry Su…My mistake…are you okay?” Then Yunho took Junsu to their bedroom.

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The thief of my wallet is stealing my heart!

2008-10-10T07:06:58Z

Junsu was on his way to the CD shop he owned. He stopped at the magazine stand to buy a newspaper and some lifestyle magazines. Then someone bumped in to him.

“Yah! Watch out!” Junsu said.

“Sorry” The man replied then continued his walk.

“Sir I buy this newspaper and 2 magz. How much it is?” Junsu asked the man on the stand.

“Ah…that would be $6.45 sir” He replied. Then Junsu took out his wallet from his back pocket but when he put his hand on his pocket he couldn’t find it.

“Gosh…Where’s my wallet?” He searched it on his bagpack but still couldn’t find it.
“AHHHH!!! Thief!!! Someone stole my wallet!!!” Junsu shouted as he put back the magazines and the newspaper.

“Sir? Are you sure?” The stand man asked. Everybody around the stand looked at Junsu with a questioned looked.

“Where the hell I dropped it?” Junsu asked himself in frustration.

“Did you bump in to somebody on your way?” A woman asked him.

“Yes…When I picked the magazine someone bumped into me then walked away…OH SHIT!!! HE’S THE THIEF!!!” Junsu tried to find that man and started run around the street. “Goddamnit! How come I didn’t realize it? That son of a bitch! Argh my money…my ID card…my license…Shit..shit…” Junsu kept running in order to find the thief. But then someone patted his shoulder.

“Ehm, sir can I help you? What happened?” A tall, handsome, long brown haired man asked Junsu.

“Huh?” Junsu was speechless when he saw this gorgeous man.

“I asked you, what happened?” The man asked again.

“Ah…I lost my wallet…Someone stole it from me…I bumped in to someone then my wallet gone…” Junsu explained.

“REALLY?” The man looked shock too.

“Uh-huh…” Junsu nodded.

“Are you sure you didn’t leave it in your house?” He asked.

“Nope…I remember I put it in my pocket…” Junsu replied.

“Then how we’re gonna find it?” The man asked himself.

“Nah…it's okay I can find it by myself” Junsu smiled at the other man.

“You sure? No I guess it's okay if I can help you…I don’t have something to do either…” He smiled back. “My name is Yunho, Jung Yunho…” He offered a handshake.

“Oh…I’m Kim Junsu…” Junsu shook his hand.

“Nice to meet you Junsu-shii”

“No…It's a pleasure for me to meet you and you help me too” Junsu smiled brightly.

“We better start to search it” Yunho said.

“Hm okay…” Junsu nodded. “But can we really find it?” Junsu asked still unsure.

“Well maybe we can find the wallet…But I’m not sure if the money still in it…” Yunho replied with a shrug.

“Aish…It's still a week before I could take the shop profit” Junsu pulled his hair in anger and confusion.

“Huh? Are you okay?” Yunho asked.

“Yes I’m fine…” Junsu replied weakly.

“How about you stay here and I searched it?” Yunho offered.

“Eh? Then how you know if the wallet you find is mine or not?” Junsu asked.

”Erhh…There must be an ID card in it right?” Yunho replied.

“Ahh~ okay then…I’ll search it around the stand…” then Yunho walked away and gone on the corner of the street.

~JUNSU’S POV~

OH MY GOSH!!! HE’S SOOO GORGEOUS!!!

I thought I finally find my knight with a white horse…Ahahaha I know it's a little bit childish but…Hey he really is like a knight…

It would be nice if I can be a friend of him…Ahh friend is not enough…Bestfriend or maybe BOYFRIEND?! Kyaa… I couldn’t imagine that…

Since he’s so nice for me maybe I can get his cellphone number or his address…Yes I can ask it later…

Ahh~~Was it what we called LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?

~END OF JUNSU’S POV~

Then after searched in every corner of the newspaper stand and all trash bin on the street, Junsu gave up.

“ARGH!!! That thief!!!” Junsu yelled to himself. Not so long then Yunho came.

“Junsu-shii is this your wallet?” Yunho said.

“Ahh!!! Yes that’s mine!!!” Junsu squealed than took the wallet from Yunho’s hand.

“The money is gone…” Yunho said.

“Ahh…Nah gweanchana…As long as my ID card and my license are save it's okay…” Junsu patted Yunho’s back. “Thank Yunho-Shii” Junsu bowed a bit.

“You’re welcome” Yunho smiled.

“Ah…Because you’ve helped me…Then how about a cup of coffee? My treat” Junsu offered.

“Nah…You’ve got something to do right? Go to work?” Yunho asked back.

“Yeah…But I must get some money at my house…Maybe you could come by and have some coffee or something else…” Junsu explained.

“But-t…”

“No buts…I owe you this…” Junsu grabbed Yunho’s hand and led him to his house.

~YUNHO’S POV~

Oh my…His hands are sooo soft…and he has a beautiful face…So cute and flawless…

I already admired it…

His voice is sooo cute too…

But what I loved the most was his smile…Ahh what a sweet smile…

I hope I could know better about him…

Maybe I could if I wasn’t…

~END OF YUNHO’S POV~

“Tada…This is my house…Just a small one I guess…” Junsu opened his door for Yunho.

“Wow…it's soo hommy…ahh so neat and cozy…” Yunho said in amazed tone.

“Hahahaha it's just a simple house I guess…I bought it by myself…That’s why it small…Hahaha but it's my home sweet home…” Junsu said proudly.

“I love this house…Can sometime I visit you?” Yunho asked.

“Of course…You’re my friend now…” Junsu smiled and pulled Yunho to his living room. “Wait here I get you some coffee”

“Okay” Yunho said as sat on a cozy couch.

A minutes later Junsu came back and brought some 2 mugs of coffee and some chocolate muffins.

“There you go…You want some creamer or more sugar? And this muffins I made it this morning…Please try it…” Junsu offered.

“Really? Ah you can cook too?” Yunho asked as he took one muffin and chewed it. “Hmmm it's great!”

“Really?” Junsu blushed at Yunho’s compliment.

“Hmm I missed my mother’s food…Ahh I wish I would have a boyfriend like you…” Yunho said as he smiled wonderfully made Junsu blushed even more.

“Huh? Boyfriend?” Junsu tried to hide his blush.

“Ah yes…I-I’m gay actually…Is it okay?” Yunho asked Junsu with a little bit uncomfortable feeling.

“Huh? No-o it's not like that…What a coincident…I’m gay too…” Junsu smiled at Yunho.

“Really?” Yunho wanted to make sure and Junsu nodded.

“What’s wrong for being a gay?” Junsu asked Yunho but Yunho just shrugged his shoulder. “Love is love, well at least for me…Love have no limits…As long I love him or her…That’s all I care…” Junsu explained.

“Yeah…I guess so…” Yunho replied. “Well I gotta go…I got something to do…See you again…” Yunho stood up and straightened his cloths then walked to the front door.

“Wait…” Junsu stopped Yunho. “Give me your number…” Junsu took out his cellphone.

“Sorry I don’t have one…Just give me yours…I’ll call you I promised…” Yunho answered.

“Oh okay…” After Yunho got Junsu’s number he excused himself and went to God knows where.

“Will you really call me Yunho-ah?” Junsu asked himself. Then he remembered that he got to go to his CD shop or else his twin brother, Junho would kill him. He rushed out his house and hurriedly ran for his life.

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A week went by and Junsu still didn’t get a phone call from Yunho, just some mysterious calls from a private number at nights. But each time he received the phones nobody talked.

“Was it you Yunho-ah?” Junsu asked himself as he stared at his cellphone’s screen.

When he was about go to sleep, his cellphone rang.

“Hello? Yoboseo?” Junsu said but all he heard was total silent. After a good 1 minute then somebody talked.

“Go to your front door and opened it…” The beeping sound was all the sign the caller already hang him up.

“Huh?” Even though Junsu was confused but he kept obey the order. He went to his front door and opened it. Nothing he could find. He looked around but he saw nothing. When he was about walking back inside he stepped on something. “What is it?” Junsu picked it up. It was an envelope. He opened it and found some money and a note.

“Sorry for stole it from you…I know it was wrong but I need money for medicine. My mom was sick and I need some money to bring her to the doctor…I’m SOOOO sorry…this is the money that I used...Sorry for taking such a long time to get it back to you…” Junsu read the note. Then he realized something. “Was it Yunho? Was it Yunho who stole my wallet?” Junsu asked himself. He remained silent and thought for a while.

“YUNHO-AH GET YOUR ASS OUTTA HERE AND FACE ME!!! OR I’LL CALL THE POLICE!!!” Junsu shouted. It took only 3 second before someone came out from the darkness and stood in front of Junsu. “How come you do this to me huh?”

“I…I’m sorry…I need the money that’s why I did that…” Yunho didn’t have guts to look Junsu in the eyes.

“Is this the real reason why you do this?” Junsu crossed his arm on his chest.

“Yeah…My mom got sick…That’s why I need the money…” Yunho nodded then remained silent.

“Then why you lied to me? You acted like a hero and helped me to find my wallet but you ARE the one who stole it?” Junsu walked to Yunho. “Then why you return the money to me?” Junsu was in front of Yunho and lifted Yunho’s chin so that Yunho face him.

“I…I-I…I’m sooooo sorry…It's because…When I-I realized you were too shocked because your wallet was gone…you were so-o...*whispered* cute…” Yunho answered.

“Huh? I can’t listen it…I was what?” Junsu asked.

“You were so cute that’s why I didn’t have a heart to let you just like that…” Yunho whispered.

“Then why did that time you just return the wallet to me…WITHOUT my money in it?” Junsu pointed out the obvious.

“I needed the money…Sorry Su…Sorry for done such a thing to you…” Yunho grabbed Junsu hands. “Will you forgive me Su? I promise I won’t do such a thing again…” Yunho said seriously and for the first time that night he dared to look Junsu at the eyes.

“I won’t forgive you…” Junsu answered.

“W-what? B-but why-y? I already returned your money right-t?” Yunho looked scared.

“I WON’T forgive you…Because you’re not just stole my money…” Yunho looked at Junsu with a puzzled look. “You also stole my heart…And I’m sure you couldn’t return it to me…” Junsu blushed then turned around, but Yunho grabbed him by his waist and hugged him from behind.

“Then I would like to call the police…” Yunho turned Junsu around. “Because it looks like someone stole my heart too…” Yunho smiled at Junsu.

“And is the person is me?” Junsu asked shyly.

“Yes…” Yunho put both of his hands on Junsu cheeks and pulled him closer. He kissed Junsu lightly.

“So the thief who steal my wallet, now steal my heart too?” Junsu asked between their kiss.

“And I won’t return that one from now on…” Yunho replied and they kissed again.

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stellalight @ 2008-09-06T09:39:00

2008-09-06T02:56:58Z

Title : Love Will Find a Way
Main Pairing : HoSu
Other Pairing : MinBum,JaeHo,YooSu,MinWon,JaeWon

Forewords

Junsu LOVES Yoochun. He was Junsu’s first love. They used to live in a same neighborhood in the States, but Yoochun moved back to South Korea with his family. Junsu chased Yoochun, he went to South Korea all by himself.

He met with some new friends at his new school, and the most annoying man ever named Jung Yunho, who was unfortunately hi ROOMMATE. Even though Yunho and Junsu had some problem at first (because Yunho always bully Junsu) but for some reason Junsu realized that he couldn’t live without Yunho by his side as time goes by.

Junsu finally met Yoochun and they got along very well. They went out for date and do other stuffs as a couple. Even though he went with Yoochun there’s still someone in his mind, none other than Jung Yunho.

Until one day Junsu made up his mind and decided to confess his feeling to Yoochun. But Yoochun didn’t answer the ‘question’ right away. That’s made Junsu doubted Yoochun’s feeling towards him. He, Yunho, Changmin, and Kibum went to have some drinks at club to release all the tension and feeling in his body and mind. They got all drunk and then something little bit unpredictable happened…

Junsu have sex with Yunho…In their drunk condition…

Yunho was Junsu first…

So was Junsu, he’s Yunho’s first…

The next day Yoochun asked Junsu to go out with him. Yoochun brought him into a hotel. Junsu thought Yoochun just wanted to answer his ‘question’ but he got it ALL wrong…Yoochun asked him to be his whore…

So…

Could one night with Yunho change everything?

Should they call that night was one night stand or the beginning of all…

Who’s gonna Junsu chooses?

What’ll happen to him?

Could their love find a way?

Kiss Shita Mama, Sayonara…

2008-09-06T02:23:45Z

~
Blink it…
Smell it…
And feel it…
Open…open your eyes…
Just look at me now…
~

I looked at you. You were lying there peacefully as if you were sleeping. Your closed eyes were a sign for me that you were taking your rest. A sign that you were too tired to fight in this world, too tired so that you chose to leave me alone. But it's okay. I’ve seen you hurt enough. I don’t want you to push yourself over and over again to take that hurtful medication.

I hoped I could still look at your beautiful brown eyes. I know it's impossible, but please just one last time. Could you just open your eyes for me? I leaned down so that I can look at your closer and better. I touched your chapped cold lips with my shaking fingertips. I leaned closer and kissed it.

~
Boku no sekai no subete datta…
(You were my world)
~

~FLASHBACK~

I looked at you. Somehow, when I looked at your face I felt that I’m looking at the most beautiful view in the world I’ve ever seen. You’re innocent smile and bright eyes were the most priceless things in my life.

“Why are you looking at me like that Yunnie?” You asked cutely.

“I’m just remembering how beautiful my lover is…I’m afraid that someday I’ll forget it…or you just leave me alone…” Once I said it I could see the change on your expression. Your face went pale and your eyes told me something. But I couldn’t find it. I didn’t understand it.

“Why do you say that, Yunnie?” You came closer to me and touched my face softly.

“I just want to remember that you are my life...Looking at your face keeps me breathing…Having you by my side keeps me alive Su-ah…I don’t know what I’m going to do without you…I can’t breath, I can’t live…” I kissed your wrist and looked at your eyes once again waiting for your answer. But you didn’t say anything. You just pulled me into a hug. You hugged me so tight as if you didn’t want to let me go. I felt a single tear fell onto my shoulder. I pulled away “Why are you crying Su-ah?” I wiped away the tears but it kept falling down because you couldn’t hold it back.

“Just try to live Yunnie! I don’t want you to stop breath and stop living…I want you to keep alive…Because seeing you alive keeps me happy even though I’m not in this world again…Please try to get through it…Promise me, you will live your life even if I’m not by your side anymore…” You grabbed my hand and placed it on your cheek. I nodded my head and you kissed my hand. You smiled weakly then stood and walked away.

“You are my life Su…If God takes you away…It just as if He takes my life away…Then how I could live Su? You haven’t told me how…”

~END OF FLASHBACK~

~
Please tell me little lie…
Kikoeru you ni…
(So that I can hear you)
~

~FLASHBACK~

“Su, I’m home!” I shouted as I walked to you at the kitchen. You dropped something to the floor. You quickly grabbed it as if you didn’t want me to saw it. But I already saw it.

“Ahh…Yunnie you’re home…” You immediately hid it in one of kitchen drawer behind you then turn around.

“Yeah I’m home…What was that Su?” I asked you as walked towards you.

“Huh? What was what?” You asked back.

“What was you’re hiding from me?” I pecked on your cheek and hug you. “You better tell me or else Su-ah…” I demanded. All of sudden you’re crying, sobbing uncontrollable. “What’s wrong Su? Why are you crying?” I tightened our hug.

“Yunho…*sob…Mianhae…Jongmal mianhae…*sob…I’m so s-sorry…” You kept crying even harder.

“Why Su? What’s wrong babe? Tell me please?” I stroke your soft hair and kissed your forehead. Then you pulled away and led me to the living room.

“Wait here…” You smiled but your tears won’t stop falling. Then you walked back to the kitchen. I waited for you with a ton of questions in my head. You walked towards me with some paper and a stack of small bottles looked like medicine.

“What’s that Su?” I asked you as you sat beside me.

“Y-Yunnie I got to tell you something…” You looked at me doubtfully.

“What is it Su?” I asked you and grabbed your hand, held it tight to convince you that it was okay to tell me everything.

“Y-Yun…I’m dying…Blood cancer…” If that isn’t gave me a big smack on my body I don’t know what else would. With you once again crying hard, it only made me more confuse.

“W-what are you-u talking-g about Su…Don’t play around-d with me-e…It's not-t funny at all…” I kept looking at your teary eyes, seeking for an answer.

“I*sob…I’m serious Yun*sob…It's not a*sob joke…this is the doctor’s diagnose…*sob…I don’t have much time left Yun…I*sob…I’m sorry I didn’t tell you first…I’m sooo*sob sooooo sorry…” You tried your best to say that. You handed me the paper in the envelope but I threw it aside. How come you do this to me?

“No-o…No…Please tell me this is lie-e…Don’t tell me this is real-l…” I didn’t realize my own tears running down my cheeks. “Tell me Su! Tell me it's just a lie…” I scream. You didn’t answered it, you tried to hug me but I pulled away.

“I’m sorry*sob…I’m so sorry…” And with that I stood up and walked away. I left you alone and walked out the apartment. “Yunnie don’t leave me!” Was the last thing I hear that night.

~END OF FLASHBACK~

~
Demo yawarakaku kono te kara koboreta kimi…
(But you just softly slipped away)
~

~FLASHBACK~

Once again you got to stay at the hospital. It's almost 3 weeks since you told me about your sickness. Was it really hard for you to tell me the truth since the very first time you know that you have blood cancer? I have accepted that you are dying of a blood cancer. And I pray each and every night for your healthy, so that I could spend our days left together. But I guessed God didn’t give me the chance. Since that day, your healthy getting worse. You must check in and out from the hospital. I always stay by your side in the hospital.

I touched your pale face gently. “How come you do this to me Su?” I whispered as my tears started to scroll down. “You know that I can’t live without you…but now you have to leave me?” I knew that you can hear me even though you are sleeping peacefully. I don’t know what else I can do beside stay by your side and talking to you. At lease looking at your face keeps me breath even if it's hard to do so.

“Y-yun-nie…” You called me softly under the oxygen masker.

“Yes Su…Do you need something? Are you thirsty?” I wiped my tears because I didn’t want you to see me crying.

“Were you crying Yun?” You asked weakly.

“No…I’m not…shhs don’t talk too much Su…Just get some rest ne? You must be very tired right?” I forced my smile to assure you that everything is going to be okay.

“Keep smiling for me Yun…Don’t forget your promised to live your life good even though I wasn’t by your side anymore…I’ll keep watching over you from there…Will you Yun?” You looked at me tiredly.

“Shhs…what are you talking about Su? Everything is going to be alright…You’ll heal and we’ll stay together…” I stroked your hair gently.

“No Yun…It's already my time to go…Please promise me you’ll do what I say…” You kept talking even though it's hard for you.

“I promise Su…I promise…now sleep okay…you looked very tired…” I kissed your forehead.

“Thanks Yunnie…I love you…I love you so much…” You said as you closed your eyes.

“I love you too Su…I love you forever and ever…” I kissed your forehead a little longer then I saw you smiling in your sleep.

Then I was pulled back to reality when the ECG (ElectroCardioGram) machine started beeping noisily as a sign that you were on a critical condition. I quickly called the doctor and nurse. They came and checked over you. They told me to stay outside. I waited in front of the door. I prayed to God for you. I prayed to Him for not taking you away from me. Then the doctor came out.

“I’m sorry sir…We can't save him…” I fell on my knees. All my sight went blank.

~END OF FLASHBACK~

~
Nagaku tsuzuku kono michi ni ima wa inai kimi e
Kiss shita mama goodbye…
(On this never-ending road that you’re no longer on
As we kiss, goodbye)
~

Today you left me. It's hard for me but I’ve promised you to stay alive. I promised you to live my life.

I will always love you forever and ever Su…

Even without you by my side now, I’ll try my best to keep breathing and living…

I won’t try to find someone to replace you, because you are the one and the only one for me…

You promised me to keep watching me from up above right?

Keep on loving me Su…Cause even though I can't see you but I can feel your love still…

Your body lying there on the coffin, you still look beautiful Su-ah…

I leaned over you and kissed your lips once again, kissed it for the very last time.

Goodbye Su…I’ll see you there sooner or later…

~THE END~

Hyung!!! I LOVE YOU PABO!!!

2008-09-06T02:14:16Z

“Hyung please…” Junsu gave Yunho the cutest puppy eyes he had ever showed.

“Please what?” Yunho looked at his cute little dongsaeng with the I-want-you-to-beg-more look.

“Hyung…Pweeasee?” Junsu clamped his hands together in front of his chest.

“I don’t know what are you talking about Su-ah” Yunho turned his back at Junsu.

“FINE!!! IF YOU DON’T WANT TO TAKE ME TO THE THEME PARK THEN I DON’T WANT TO SLEEP IN THE SAME BED WITH YOU EVER AGAIN!!!” Junsu screamed on top of his lungs. Yunho quickly turned around and saw Junsu walked away, but immediately Yunho grabbed Junsu hands and pull him back to his chest.

“RELEASE ME HYUNG!!!” Junsu struggled.

“You don’t want to go to the theme park again?” Yunho asked as he put his chin on Junsu left shoulder.

“I WILL go by myself” Junsu answered, kept trying to break free.

“You sure? I didn’t know that my cute little dongsaeng Kim Xiah Junsu is now have enough guts to go to such a crowded places by himself” Yunho teased.

“I-I…Fine if I can’t go by myself-f then I’ll go-o…I-I’ll go with…Changmin! Yes I’ll go with him” Junsu stuttered, he knew himself that he IS scared to go to such a public places by himself.

“Hmm? Changmin? Don’t you know that he’s having his final exam next Monday? He WON’T let you to take him go with you” Yunho said firmly.

“YAH JUNG YUNHO!!! COULD YOU JUST LET GO OFF ME?” Junsu shrieked.

“What for?” Yunho asked back.

“I want to go to the theme park! If you don’t want to go with me then let me go with Hyukkie or Yoochun-hyung…” Junsu said in a low tone as if he didn’t really want to go without Yunho.

“Fine, you can go now…bye! Have a nice day at the theme park” Yunho let Junsu go and then walked to his room, Left Junsu alone at the living room.

“Now who will go with me?” Junsu asked to himself as he pulled out his cellphone from his jacket. He called Yoochun’s phone but no answers. Junsu thought Yoochun must be busy cause he didn’t see him since he woke up. Then Junsu called Eunhyuk’s number.

“Yoboseo…Whats up Su?” Eunhyuk asked as he picked up the phone.

“Ehmm…Are you busy now?” Junsu asked him.

“Well, kinda…What’s the matter?” Eunhyuk asked again.

“Ehmm nothin’…I’ll call you some other time then…Bye!” Junsu hung up the phone before Eunhyuk could reply him. “Huffh…Am I really really must go by myself?” Junsu sighed then took his backpack which full with some clothes, digital camera, and some snack. “Fine! I’ll go myself! Aza!” Junsu walked out from the apartment.

Without him realized that since Yunho left him alone, Yunho kept watching him from his room. He peeked at Junsu through the keyhole, he eavesdropped Junsu while he made phone call to Yoochun and Eunhyuk. Then he smiled to himself as he knew that nobody would accompany Junsu to the theme park because he had some plan to do and he needed Junsu to go alone to the theme park. “See you there Su” Yunho said to himself as he went to pack some things to his bag.

~@ the theme park~

Junsu already spent almost half of the day at the theme park by himself. He already rode the jet coaster, free fall, and some other rides for the second time or even the third time. “Huffh it's kinda boring without nobody else. Why did Yunho-hyung don’t want to go with me?” Junsu sat on a bench and pouted after he remembered why did he asked Yunho to go with him. Junsu wanted to spend some times with Yunho, just him and Yunho. But what? Yunho refused it. “I really really hate you Jung Yunho!” Junsu murmured under his breath then took a gulp of coke from the can he was holding. Suddenly his cellphone rang.

“Hello?” Junsu asked in annoyed tone.

“Yah Junsu what’s the matter with the annoyed voice? Did I call in a wrong time? Are you having fun at the theme park? It sounded like you didn’t…” Yunho chuckled.

Junsu really really wanted to smack Yunho hard on his head if he could. “Are you done? I want to ride the JET COASTER FOR THE FOURTH TIME if you excuse me” Junsu got really really annoyed by now. He hung up the call. “Why you always tease me hyung? Don’t you know that sometimes you REALLY REALLY are annoying?” Junsu pulled his hair in anger. He stood up and was about to walk to the jet coaster AGAIN. But his cellphone rang again.

“Hello…” Junsu answered it with a sad and lazy tone.

“Yah Su-ah…What’s happen to you? Why it sounds like you are so sad and lazy to answer my phone? Is there something wrong? Do you really really mad at me?” Yunho asked in concern tone.

“No…Could you just let me enjoy my day hyung? You are really REALLY annoying this time!” Junsu excused himself.

“Answer my question Su”

“What question?” Junsu asked back.

“Are you mad at me?”

“No…Why would I mad at you?”

“Really?”

“What’s wrong with you hyung? Is there something wrong there?”

“I’m just asking…You REALLY aren’t mad at me right?” Yunho asked again.

“NO…Are you done? I gotta go now…”

“Are you sure Su? Cause if you ARE mad at me…I could do something to make it up for you…”

“You WON’T do something I asked you” Junsu explained calmly.

“Why wouldn’t I? I definitely would…I WILL do anything for you!” Yunho said proudly.

“You WON’T…” Junsu sat back on the bench. He really really hated to talk about something like this with Yunho. Cause he knows Yunho just playing with his heart.

“Try me!” Yunho said.

“Why should I?” Junsu sounded like he was really tired to talk to Yunho.

“Just say it Su!” Yunho demanded.

“Fine! I want to see you here in front of me…I give you 25 minutes to be here...You won't make it...” Junsu said desperately.

“Then if I made it what I would get from you as the exchange?”

“What do you want?”

“I’ll tell you later” Yunho said as he hung up.

“What the hell is going on?” Junsu stared at his cellphone screen. He kept staring at his wallpaper, it was Yunho picture. Yunho was smiling brightly and looked at the camera. Junsu smiled to himself. He loved Yunho, a lot. That’s why he always tries to get close with him. He always asks Yunho to go out with him, like today. Sometimes Yunho would gladly go with him that definitely made Junsu feel very happy. But there are times when Yunho rejected it, like today. “How could you kept smiling like that when you just made my heart ache?” Junsu said as he flipped his cellphone and looked at the sky. He closed his eyes and laid back.

Did Yunho know about it? About him had a feeling towards his hyung?

Of course he didn’t know since he acted like one.

He didn’t realize how I feel when we went out together for dinner or something else.

He didn’t realize how sad I felt when he wasn’t by my side.

Like today, even though playing around at the theme park was fun but without him here it was nothing.

“I love you a lot but why does it feel hurts? It hurts a lot…Do you love me back hyung?” Junsu whispered.

“What hurts a lot?” A voice asked Junsu. Junsu immediately opened his eyes and saw the person standing in front of him.

“Hyung?” Junsu’s voice was shaking.

“I made it” Yunho smiled at him. Junsu stood up and started to hit Yunho on the chest.

“I hate you hyung! I hate you a lot! I HATE JUNG YUNHO!” Junsu kept hitting Yunho. Tears started to fall down on his cheeks. Yunho hugged him tight but he kept hitting him.

“Why do you hate me?” Yunho whispered on Junsu’s hair.

“You…*sob…you always hurts me…*sob…I hate you!” Junsu sobbed on Yunho chest.

“How could I hurt you?”

“Hyung! I love…*sob… Hyung! I LOVE YOU PABO!!” Junsu looked up at Yunho’s eyes with his teary eyes. Yunho wiped away his tears and smiled.

“And I love you too Su…” Yunho said then leaned down to kiss Junsu. The kiss was soooo sweet and last for a couple of minutes. “Is that a right answer for your question?”

“Yes…” Junsu smiled at his hyung. He hugged Yunho back tightly as if he didn’t want to let go forever and ever. His hyung body is warm, soooo warm.

“I never meant to hurt you Su…I’m soooo sorry if I did hurt you without I even realized…I love you too much to make you feel sad or even crying…” Yunho said gently.

“But you’ve made me sad even crying a couple of times! You are a bad hyung!” Junsu replied.

“But I will definitely try my best to be a good lover…Would you be my lover Su?” Yunho pulled himself and placed both of his hands on Junsu’s cheeks, made Junsu looked at his eyes directly. Junsu kissed Yunho’s left wrist and smiled at him.

“Of course hyung…I always dream about it…” Junsu answered. And with that Yunho hugged him back. “Don’t make me sad and cry ever again, neh Yunnie?” Junsu said.

“I wouldn’t make you sad…but I would make you cry happy tears…and only the tears of happiness…Okay Su?” Junsu nodded his head.

“Don’t leave me too! I don’t know what will happen if you leave…but I definitely know that it won’t be a good thing for me…” Junsu said again.

“I won’t Su…but there are times when I have to go to attend a show or meeting without you…so I must leave you by yourself right?” Yunho chuckled.

“Not funny Jung Yunho!” Junsu pulled away and hit Yunho chest again then pouted.

“Hahahaha…but it’s true, aite?” Yunho ruffled Junsu’s hair then pulled him to sit on the bench.

“Anyway how come you made it here that fast?” Junsu asked Yunho curiously.

“Hmm…That’s a secret!” Yunho whistled.

“Tell me! Tell me!” Junsu tickled Yunho and forced him to tell.

“Okay…okay…I followed you here…I kept following you for a couple of hours but to my surprise you didn’t even realized it…What a insensitive person…Hahahaha” Yunho laughed.

“B-but you say you don’t want to go here…How come you tricked me?!” Junsu tickled Yunho again.

“Hahahahaha…but if I didn’t follow you then this is wouldn’t happen right?” Yunho said then smiled widely as if he won over Junsu because Junsu became silent all of sudden.

“So you have planned it, huh? How could you?” Junsu pouted.

“No…I planned to tell you there…” Yunho pointed at the free fall.

“Ehh? How? How you’ll gonna tell me?” Junsu confused.

“When the free fall comes down I’ll scream as loud as I can ‘I LOVE YOU KIM XIAH JUNSU’…hahahaha how do you think?” Yunho said.

“You’re always joking around, ne?” Junsu chuckled.

“Aniyo…I really planned it like that…cause I know if I just said or whispered ‘I love you’ it wouldn’t enough…” Yunho said seriously.

“You don’t have to said loud Yunho…even if you just whispered it, I would still hear it perfectly…and I could feel it and see it…because your eyes tell me everything…” Junsu said then kissed Yunho’s cheek lightly.

“I love you Su…” Yunho said and kissed Junsu on the mouth.

~THE END~